Feb 10, 2026 · 1:22:42

Jonathan Groff on Good Hang with Amy Poehler

The Hang, in Short

Amy jokes about her terrible theater etiquette: wearing loud sweaters, making noise, and giving live thumbs up/down ratings during shows. When Gracie Lawrence calls in, she drops that she'll actually be in the audience for her new show All Out that night. Perfect timing. The episode celebrates Jonathan Groff before Amy's sit-down with him, and Gracie, fresh from playing Connie Francis opposite his Bobby Darin in Just in Time, has thoughts. She calls him "one of the greatest performers of all time," someone who makes people feel instantly comfortable even when playing bizarre weirdos. Her question for Jonathan: why is he never anxious? She's watched him lead a Broadway show, perform at the Tonys three times, do massive press, all without breaking a sweat. He's Yoda. Meanwhile she's a nervous wreck and he just goes "really? huh?" when she mentions it. Annoying but impressive.

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  1. 0:04

    Hello everyone. Welcome to another

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    episode of Good Hang. We are so excited

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    to talk to Jonathan Grath. Huge fan. And

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    what a delight. What a just so so

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    talented and funny and so fun to talk

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    to. And we're going to talk about a lot

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    of things today. We're going to talk

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    about horses. We're going to talk about

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    Broadway. We're going to talk about um

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    making lasting friendships at work.

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    We're going to talk about us both

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    playing Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz and

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    the different things we brought to it.

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    And we're going to talk about his

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    Broadway smash hit, Just in Time, which

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    is open for a few more weeks on

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    Broadway. He plays Bobby Darren. It's

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    amazing. You have to see it. But before

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    we do, we're going to check in with

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    someone who knows our guest, who's

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    worked with our guest, who loves our

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    guest, and that person is Gracie

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    Lawrence. Gracie is an incredible singer

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    from the band Lawrence. She was uh

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    Connie Francis in Just in Time and we

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    are going to speak to her while she is

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    in rehearsal for another Broadway show,

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    All Out. Gracie, do you have a question

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    for our darling Jonathan?

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    Hi.

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    What do you say?

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    All I ever wanted.

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    >> Hello, Gracie.

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    >> Okay, wait. Sorry. There's some people

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    in my dressing room that are back.

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    >> I I I told him that I was in the middle

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    of something, but it's like in there.

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    >> Oh my god. Listeners, John Stewart and

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    Abby Jacobson are flanking Gracie

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    Lawrence right now. We got a threeer.

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    >> A threeer.

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    >> A sentence I've dreamed of. Yeah.

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    >> A threefur with Amy Polar.

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    >> Oh my god. Hi friends.

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    >> Hello friends.

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    >> What a good surprise.

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    >> No. They live in my dressing room. Yeah,

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    we share a dress.

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    >> This one Amy topnotch.

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    >> So so tal so naturally talented.

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    >> The only downside honestly Amy is the

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    drinking. Yeah. Really, that's the part

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    that the only thing that's holding her

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    back.

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    >> Yeah. Yeah.

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    >> We don't have to talk about it.

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    >> Yeah. There there's actually not a

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    podcast today. Uh, Gracie, we're all

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    here because we love you and we want to

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    >> You know what? I thought that this

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    seemed strange. I was like, why are they

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    in my dressing room? Why am I getting a

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    call from Amy Polar?

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    >> Look at you guys. Broadway, you know,

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    it's just rehearsal.

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    >> Broadway babies.

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    >> Broadway babies. Guys, let's do our

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    thing. me.

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    >> Okay, we actually I could go down.

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    >> Okay, bye.

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    >> Love you.

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    >> Love you.

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    >> We're talking about and to Jonathan

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    Grath today who I know you love.

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    >> I love Jonathan Grath in such an intense

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    way. Wait, I need to say something to

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    you first.

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    >> Okay, wait. Okay, wait.

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    >> Okay. Like, wait. Like, everyone stop.

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    First of all, I would watch this this

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    podcast in my dressing room at just in

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    time before the show because it was like

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    a calming

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    >> warm hug. I would watch it with my

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    dressing roommate Erica Henning and we

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    were like

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    >> the best. We'd be like panicking before

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    we went on stage and we would watch this

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    podcast and a calm would come over us.

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    >> So Gracie, you are rehearsing right now

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    for your new Broadway show.

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    >> Yes.

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    >> Do you want to tell people what that is?

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    >> Yes. It's a show called All Out with our

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    mutual friends Abby Jacobson and John

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    Stewart and Eric Andre and Ike Baron

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    Holtz. Um, and it's

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    >> FYI, I'm coming to see it tonight.

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    >> I heard that nasty little rumor. Are you

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    really? Oh my god, I'm going to be so

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    >> And I like to wear a very loud sweater

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    so people can see me. And I like to make

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    a lot of noise.

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    >> I'll find you. I'll find

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    >> And I like to give thumbs up or thumbs

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    down as the show goes on.

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    >> That's totally fine with me. I like to

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    make a lot of uncomfortable eye contact

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    with one audience member and I think

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    it's going to be you tonight. Um, yeah.

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    And then I'm in the show with my band

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    Lawrence, which is my brother and I and

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    six of our closest friends and we're

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    playing our original music in this show.

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    It's super cool.

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    >> And Gracie, you are you like you you

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    straddle this amazing world. And one of

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    the things I want to talk to Jonathan

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    >> Well, you you straddle an amazing world.

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    Don't get dirty, you little little

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    minks. You'll watch it. Someone's

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    listening to this before they go on and

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    they want peaceful.

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    >> They want peace. No, totally.

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    >> Okay. you're a singer and you are on on

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    stage and you record and you act like

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    you you and and it's really interesting

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    because I think Jonathan very similarly

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    like when I look at his career he has

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    done so many things and both of you are

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    examples of like there's no categorizing

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    artists uh anymore there's no you know

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    there used to be this feeling that like

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    you could only be this kind of performer

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    or actor be and Jonathan is a perfect

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    example of that can you tell me the

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    first time you met him and what your

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    first impression of him was.

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    >> I met Jonathan on the first day of

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    rehearsal of the workshop of Just in

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    Time.

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    >> And for people who don't know, can you

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    just tell us what that show is?

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    >> Just in Time is a Broadway show. It is

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    directed by Alex Timbers. Um, and it is

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    about the life of Bobby Darren. Um, and

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    I play Connie Francis. And Jonathan

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    plays played Jonathan currently plays

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    Bobby Darren. I played Connie Francis

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    and um yeah, we met on the first day of

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    the workshop and I was really nervous

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    >> um which is like a theme of my life. Um

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    and Jonathan walked in and the first

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    thing I did in the day was sing with

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    him. That was like my first my first

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    entrance to this show. He walked in like

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    star of the show. Like he was just such

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    a star from the second he walked in. And

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    it was like

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    >> I got the right entrance from him. I was

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    like watching him walk and he put his

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    binder down and then he sat down next to

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    me and it was kind of like and then he

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    just

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    >> did the did the Jonathan Gra thing of

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    like making really intense beautiful eye

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    contact with you.

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    >> Perfect.

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    >> Which you'll experience in the

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    >> Can't wait. He's so charming. As far as

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    his actual like big uh width and breadth

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    of talent, what what do you think makes

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    him such a special performer? I do think

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    he's like one of the greats, like one of

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    the greatest performers of all time. He

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    reminds me of the kind of performer

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    that,

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    you know, is of a different era. He

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    reminds me of Bobby Darren. Like he is

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    this kind of

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    performer that can do it all and is like

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    so magnetic and so charming.

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    >> Yeah.

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    >> His magic trick as a performer is making

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    people feel so at ease and so

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    comfortable and like they know him

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    immediately. And even when he's playing

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    bizarre weirdos, it's like you still

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    feel really comfortable around him and

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    you want to he's like the most watchable

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    person I've ever met ever on stage like

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    >> Yes.

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    >> And and his the eye contact thing

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    because I will tend to be like, you

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    know, like if someone's looking at me

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    too long, I'm like, "What?" He will lock

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    the [ __ ] in like he will he's going to

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    do that.

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    >> Okay. He is also like a lover of like

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    shenaniganry and like [ __ ] on stage.

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    Like he will really

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    I don't know how he knows the right

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    moment to do the things but like somehow

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    he will violently tickle me on stage

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    consensually. And I'll have friends at

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    the show and I'll be like, did you guys

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    notice when Jonathan just like fully in

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    the middle of the scene was like and

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    they'll be like, "No, I didn't catch

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    that." And I'm like, "How does he like

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    know? He just really knows."

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    >> He has a playful energy that's a tiny

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    bit of um I mean I I imagine when you

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    just do show after show after show, you

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    got to keep it fresh.

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    >> Yeah.

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    >> Um Okay. So, I asked my Zoom guests to

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    give me a question for my guest. I I

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    thought of a million questions um

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    because he is in some ways so anomalous.

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    Um but given that I'm technically a new

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    friend of his, even though I feel I know

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    him very well, um I've noticed in this

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    year that I've never seen him

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    frazzled

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    or anxious or nervous. And he's had so

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    many occasions where he like objectively

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    should be um like leading a show, you

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    know, doing huge interviews, going to

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    the Tony's, performing three times at

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    the Tony's. He is like Yoda like like he

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    is so calm. And when I'm nervous, he

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    always turns to me after I say like, I'm

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    feeling kind of nervous. He was like,

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    really? Huh? like he doesn't understand

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    that. Um, and I'm wondering

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    why isn't he more scared of things?

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    When did he has he always been this way?

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    Like did I meet him in a time in his

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    life where he just really has his [ __ ]

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    together or has he always been extremely

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    calm? Like when he was auditioning for

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    things back in the day, was he like

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    going in the room shaky or was he like

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    like so calm and like what if anything

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    scares him now? Little [ __ ]

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    Like I I'm annoyed. It's crazy.

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    >> Yeah, that's that's a great great

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    question because you're absolutely

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    right. He you never catch him working

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    too hard, but he's the hardest worker

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    and he's makes things I mean that's to

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    your point about like we feel like we

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    know him. He also makes things feel

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    accessible to us like I think great

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    artists do. They just they don't over

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    complicate things.

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    >> No, he's not tortured.

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    >> No, he's not. That's why I love him

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    because he's such a good example in my

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    opinion of the more talented you are,

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    the easier you are to work with. Period.

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    The end.

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    >> Again, there are the few eccentric

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    geniuses, but for the most part, if

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    you're not coming from a fear-based

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    place,

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    >> it's such a pleasure to work together

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    with someone who's so talented. So, h

  283. 11:09

    >> yeah.

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    >> Well, Gracie, that's a really really

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    good question and I I think he's really

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    good. Really great. I mean, I cannot

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    thank you enough for taking what I'm

  288. 11:19

    sure is your this is probably your

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    downtime, your eating time, your looking

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    at your phone time before we have to go

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    back out there.

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    >> I'm I'm sure they're just I'm supposed

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    to be rehearsing something, but Harris,

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    I'm here.

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    >> Thank you so much. Such a pleasure to

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    meet you. Take care. Bye.

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    >> Jonathan, I'm very, very excited that

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    you're here.

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    >> I'm very excited to be here.

  332. 12:55

    >> I thank you for doing this. You know,

  333. 12:57

    when we started the show, we were like,

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    who? We just like thought about people

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    that we wanted to talk to that would be

  336. 13:03

    good hangs and you are definitely

  337. 13:05

    someone that we really wanted to talk

  338. 13:06

    to.

  339. 13:06

    >> I am so honored. I'm so honored.

  340. 13:08

    >> Thank you. And have we ever met?

  341. 13:10

    >> No, this is our first time.

  342. 13:11

    >> This is our first time meeting. I mean,

  343. 13:13

    I'm sure you get this a lot, but I do

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    feel like I've met you.

  345. 13:16

    >> Same. Same. I know. I lifted you up.

  346. 13:19

    It's like

  347. 13:20

    >> it was an off people. It was off camera,

  348. 13:21

    but when when you came in, we hugged and

  349. 13:23

    you lifted me up, which I really

  350. 13:24

    enjoyed. Yeah.

  351. 13:25

    >> I mean, I I don't always love being

  352. 13:27

    lifted up,

  353. 13:29

    >> but I really liked when you did it. And

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    also, people should know you're very

  355. 13:33

    jacked.

  356. 13:34

    >> Oh my god. Thank you. I'll take it.

  357. 13:36

    >> Your arms are really strong.

  358. 13:38

    >> I'll take it.

  359. 13:40

    >> My friend Susie, every time I would see

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    her, I would lift her up and then she

  361. 13:43

    was like, "Jonathan,

  362. 13:45

    please stop lifting me. I don't I don't

  363. 13:48

    Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

  364. 13:49

    >> Well, when you're like a short person

  365. 13:51

    sometimes like

  366. 13:52

    >> this was her point. In improv, you got

  367. 13:54

    lifted up a lot. Which, by the way, I'm

  368. 13:55

    sure there's many women out there that

  369. 13:56

    are like, "Oh, you got lifted up a lot."

  370. 14:02

    Good thing to complain about.

  371. 14:05

    >> But I, you know, I get it though.

  372. 14:06

    There's like assumptions made. I lifted

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    you.

  374. 14:09

    >> No, it was nice.

  375. 14:09

    >> And then I felt like, oh no, did I just

  376. 14:11

    assume?

  377. 14:12

    >> No. Everything. I loved everything about

  378. 14:14

    it. I loved everything about it. Thank

  379. 14:16

    God. It was exciting. That was our first

  380. 14:17

    meeting. Lifted you.

  381. 14:18

    >> I know. And and I'm talking to you

  382. 14:20

    today. talking to you today because you

  383. 14:22

    have your show tonight.

  384. 14:23

    >> Yes.

  385. 14:24

    >> And it's few literally you're going to

  386. 14:26

    be in on stage in a few hours.

  387. 14:28

    >> Yeah. Yeah.

  388. 14:29

    >> And I have so much I want to talk to you

  389. 14:31

    about today. I I but but what one thing

  390. 14:34

    I realiz is that in you've done so many

  391. 14:37

    things so well. It's going to be hard to

  392. 14:39

    talk about all of them.

  393. 14:42

    But most of your life, your job, the

  394. 14:45

    hardest part of your day is at the end

  395. 14:46

    of your day. like what what is it like

  396. 14:49

    to have a full day waiting for your

  397. 14:51

    hardest part of the day to start?

  398. 14:53

    >> That is such a great question, Amy. And

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    I

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    >> Thank you.

  401. 14:57

    >> And I've never thought about it like

  402. 14:59

    that before.

  403. 15:00

    >> I used to have a version of that with

  404. 15:01

    SNL, right? But but but a that was once

  405. 15:04

    a week was the actual performance. The

  406. 15:06

    rest of the time was like a split like,

  407. 15:08

    you know, midday to night. But

  408. 15:10

    >> it may be the most challenging part of

  409. 15:12

    my day, but it's also the most joyful

  410. 15:15

    part of my day that getting out there

  411. 15:18

    and getting to do it,

  412. 15:20

    it's like I'm like a kid with the high

  413. 15:23

    school play.

  414. 15:24

    >> That's awesome.

  415. 15:25

    >> Yeah, I get amped and then I sleep very

  416. 15:28

    hard at night. So, I think maybe I'm

  417. 15:30

    naturally a night person.

  418. 15:32

    >> Before we get into your life, I need to

  419. 15:34

    get into sleep because it's my favorite

  420. 15:36

    thing to talk about. What time do you go

  421. 15:37

    to bed?

  422. 15:39

    Okay. So, usually the show I'm

  423. 15:41

    >> not going to like this.

  424. 15:44

    >> I'm already worried. But the show is

  425. 15:46

    over at what? 10 if you're lucky.

  426. 15:48

    >> Show over at 10:30.

  427. 15:49

    >> Oh god.

  428. 15:50

    >> And then often times part of the fun is

  429. 15:52

    like having people backstage.

  430. 15:54

    >> Nightmare.

  431. 15:57

    >> True nightmare.

  432. 15:59

    >> And then I'll talk to people and hang

  433. 16:02

    for a bit in the dressing room. I'll get

  434. 16:05

    on my bicycle.

  435. 16:07

    >> You bike home. Yep.

  436. 16:08

    >> Should people know that?

  437. 16:10

    >> We could cut that.

  438. 16:12

    >> Don't follow me.

  439. 16:13

    >> Suddenly I'm being followed by people on

  440. 16:15

    bikes.

  441. 16:16

    >> That's incredible.

  442. 16:17

    >> Yeah. I bike I bike to and from the

  443. 16:18

    theater. I arrive on a bike usually.

  444. 16:20

    >> That's great.

  445. 16:21

    >> And then I'm I'm in bed probably by like

  446. 16:25

    12:30. 12:30 or 1.

  447. 16:27

    >> Okay. I like that.

  448. 16:28

    >> Yeah. I'll go home. I'll eat something.

  449. 16:29

    I'll watch some YouTubes.

  450. 16:30

    >> Yeah. And then I'll I I do feel when I

  451. 16:33

    walk in my apartment

  452. 16:36

    like I start to go like

  453. 16:38

    >> Mhm. like

  454. 16:40

    >> I'm powering down. I'm dying. Yeah. And

  455. 16:42

    then I fall asleep and I

  456. 16:44

    >> are Are you I'm a I'm a very hard

  457. 16:46

    sleeper.

  458. 16:49

    >> I I I used to be a really really hard

  459. 16:51

    sleeper. I'm I'm getting a little

  460. 16:53

    lighter as I get older. But yeah, I I'm

  461. 16:56

    with you. I'm not I don't get up in the

  462. 16:57

    middle of I can go down. I can go down.

  463. 16:59

    >> I go down. You go down.

  464. 17:02

    >> And then what time is morning time?

  465. 17:04

    >> Is it 10:00 a.m. or is it 9:00 a.m.?

  466. 17:06

    >> It's 10:00 a.m. How did you know it was

  467. 17:07

    10:00 a.m.?

  468. 17:08

    >> Well, because the 1:00 a.m. bedtime is

  469. 17:10

    usually like a 10:00 a.m. wake up.

  470. 17:11

    >> Yeah. Yeah. That's the natural that's

  471. 17:14

    the natural wake up.

  472. 17:15

    >> 10:00 a.m.

  473. 17:15

    >> Yeah.

  474. 17:16

    >> So, we're we're talking to you right now

  475. 17:18

    at like basically your lunchtime.

  476. 17:20

    >> That's exactly right. I'm having this

  477. 17:22

    coffee.

  478. 17:24

    >> Black coffee for lunch. I'm having black

  479. 17:25

    coffee.

  480. 17:26

    >> And what is this like? What time are you

  481. 17:27

    going to go to bed tonight? We're going

  482. 17:28

    to finish this. I actually I'm already

  483. 17:31

    stressed about the fact I have to go

  484. 17:34

    have to I have the lucky privilege of

  485. 17:36

    going to a show tonight.

  486. 17:39

    I'm going to a show and I'm already

  487. 17:40

    stressed about the fact that I am not

  488. 17:42

    going to be

  489. 17:43

    >> in bed.

  490. 17:43

    >> In bed. I love bedtime. Ideally for me,

  491. 17:47

    >> you couldn't go to a matinea.

  492. 17:48

    >> I know. I I I blew it. I love the mat.

  493. 17:51

    >> Yeah, right. Cuz then you can go

  494. 17:53

    straight to bed.

  495. 17:54

    >> And when I'm there, I'm so happy. But

  496. 17:55

    I'm literally counting the minutes till

  497. 17:56

    I can go to sleep. Um, okay. But what I

  498. 17:59

    wanted to say, Jonathan, I'm now I'm

  499. 18:02

    starting.

  500. 18:02

    >> Okay. Okay.

  501. 18:03

    >> OKAY.

  502. 18:04

    >> You got the glasses on.

  503. 18:06

    >> Well, because we kind of wrote it down

  504. 18:08

    because you are such a nice boy. You are

  505. 18:13

    a good nice boy. You to me are the

  506. 18:15

    embodiment of someone who is deeply

  507. 18:21

    deeply open and and and a good caring

  508. 18:24

    nice person and also crushing it and

  509. 18:28

    ambitious and like like ambition with a

  510. 18:33

    side of you know compassion basically.

  511. 18:35

    You don't have to be a jerk.

  512. 18:37

    >> I love that you're saying that too.

  513. 18:38

    Yeah. Because often times ambition is

  514. 18:41

    seen as like a negative thing or like a

  515. 18:42

    cutthroat thing that you have to like

  516. 18:45

    >> push people aside in order to do your

  517. 18:47

    thing. But we're all just in our own

  518. 18:49

    >> on our own little like track and field

  519. 18:51

    lane.

  520. 18:52

    >> Yes, that's right. You're competing with

  521. 18:54

    yourself.

  522. 18:54

    >> Exactly.

  523. 18:55

    >> And that the idea that if like a rise,

  524. 18:58

    you know, what is it? A rising a rising

  525. 19:00

    boat.

  526. 19:01

    >> All boats rise.

  527. 19:02

    >> Yeah. It's not that

  528. 19:05

    >> all boats rise.

  529. 19:06

    >> But isn't it a rising tide? No.

  530. 19:08

    >> A rising tide rises all the boats.

  531. 19:11

    >> Really?

  532. 19:12

    >> A rising tide lifts all boat

  533. 19:14

    >> lifts all boats.

  534. 19:15

    >> But that

  535. 19:15

    >> a rising tide.

  536. 19:17

    >> That's your warm up for tonight. A

  537. 19:19

    rising tide lifts all boats.

  538. 19:21

    >> A rising tide lifts all boats. It does.

  539. 19:24

    >> A rising tide lifts all boats.

  540. 19:27

    >> That was good. You matched my That was

  541. 19:29

    perfect.

  542. 19:29

    >> Thank you. Um but uh it's true. It's

  543. 19:32

    true. like that that there's this, you

  544. 19:33

    know, you can decide and I feel like I

  545. 19:35

    feel like not knowing you but knowing so

  546. 19:37

    many people who love and love working

  547. 19:39

    with you. I feel like that is you and so

  548. 19:40

    congratulations on that. I have no

  549. 19:42

    question. I just wanted to say that

  550. 19:44

    about you right back at you.

  551. 19:45

    >> And you have done so much. You've done

  552. 19:47

    musicals. You've done television. You've

  553. 19:48

    done film. You're on Broadway right now.

  554. 19:50

    You uh you were in Spring Awakening, of

  555. 19:52

    course. You were in Hamilton. You were

  556. 19:54

    in Glee. You were in Mine Hunter. You

  557. 19:56

    like you you're Kristoff and Frozen. You

  558. 19:58

    do so many things so well. Um, but

  559. 20:02

    through it all, through it all, I feel

  560. 20:04

    the sense from you of exactly what you

  561. 20:07

    we started this conversation with, which

  562. 20:08

    is like there's still just like a lot of

  563. 20:10

    joy in getting to do what you get to do.

  564. 20:12

    >> Yeah. Yeah.

  565. 20:13

    >> And if and like you hold on to that,

  566. 20:15

    you're grateful for it. You're in the

  567. 20:16

    moment.

  568. 20:16

    >> Yes. Yes.

  569. 20:17

    >> Yes. It's

  570. 20:18

    >> work for it and you like you find those

  571. 20:20

    people. I mean, you you're the queen of

  572. 20:23

    this of like finding those people that

  573. 20:24

    you love and love to make things with.

  574. 20:27

    And I feel like as time goes by, I just

  575. 20:29

    turned 40 last year. I can feel myself

  576. 20:32

    like getting magnetized to those people

  577. 20:36

    later in life of like h like working

  578. 20:38

    with Dan Radcliffe on Merrily. He like

  579. 20:42

    that was the that was I think the first

  580. 20:44

    time I was like oh I've really met my

  581. 20:46

    match here because this guy

  582. 20:49

    loves to do this so profoundly. And we

  583. 20:53

    formed a lifelong friendship with our

  584. 20:55

    friend Lindsay. really everyone in that

  585. 20:57

    company, but like Dan Dan was like sick

  586. 21:01

    and gripping me. Like he like had to be

  587. 21:04

    out. There was like a need

  588. 21:05

    >> in him that I really related to. And I'm

  589. 21:08

    finding like as time goes by and you get

  590. 21:10

    older, like there's such a joy in the

  591. 21:13

    people that we started out with, the

  592. 21:15

    ones that really want to be here are

  593. 21:17

    still here.

  594. 21:18

    >> Yes.

  595. 21:18

    >> It's such a cool thing. And Dan

  596. 21:20

    Radcliffe Radcliffe is an example of

  597. 21:23

    this and you are which is also you want

  598. 21:26

    longevity in the business. You want to

  599. 21:28

    work a long time if you like it's a it's

  600. 21:30

    the long game.

  601. 21:31

    >> It's the long

  602. 21:32

    >> playing the long game and

  603. 21:34

    >> and I mean I can't wait to talk to you

  604. 21:36

    about Merrily. It It's such an

  605. 21:38

    incredible

  606. 21:40

    piece of art. It's so deep. I can only

  607. 21:43

    imagine what it must have been like to

  608. 21:46

    be approaching 40 and winning a Tony for

  609. 21:50

    a piece that is all about the circular

  610. 21:53

    feeling of life and like having it in

  611. 21:56

    real time and and so before we get there

  612. 22:00

    >> we're going to we're going to get there.

  613. 22:02

    But I I am so enamored and and moved by

  614. 22:07

    your by little Jonathan on the horse

  615. 22:10

    farm like your horses.

  616. 22:12

    >> You grew up in Lancaster, Pennsylvania.

  617. 22:14

    >> Yes. Yeah.

  618. 22:15

    >> Your dad was a horse trainer.

  619. 22:16

    >> Yep. Still is.

  620. 22:18

    >> Is

  621. 22:18

    >> Yeah.

  622. 22:19

    >> And do you ride horses and do you like

  623. 22:21

    horses?

  624. 22:23

    >> Uhoh. Is this controversial?

  625. 22:25

    >> It's not controversial. I So he did he

  626. 22:27

    does um harness racing. So it's like the

  627. 22:30

    cart behind the horse like you're

  628. 22:32

    sitting in the cart with the whip.

  629. 22:33

    >> Oh yeah.

  630. 22:34

    >> And so he

  631. 22:35

    >> is that are you in a like a large was

  632. 22:37

    that like a Menanite um or

  633. 22:39

    >> Yeah. My dad is his whole family is

  634. 22:41

    Menanite.

  635. 22:43

    >> Wow.

  636. 22:44

    >> My grandfather was a Menanite preacher.

  637. 22:46

    Um and he kind of like was expected to

  638. 22:48

    take over the dairy farm and cuz he was

  639. 22:51

    the oldest son but didn't wasn't into

  640. 22:53

    cows and so pivoted to horses and got

  641. 22:57

    really into horse racing and then my mom

  642. 23:00

    was raised Methodist and so started

  643. 23:02

    going to the Methodist church because

  644. 23:04

    the Menanites were not super into the

  645. 23:05

    gambling aspect of his career.

  646. 23:07

    >> Interesting.

  647. 23:08

    >> Um he wasn't shunned or anything but

  648. 23:10

    just Yeah.

  649. 23:11

    And uh so yeah, growing up I would play

  650. 23:15

    pretend on the horse farm with my

  651. 23:18

    brother, but my brother and I my brother

  652. 23:20

    David and I were both

  653. 23:23

    >> petrified of the horses cuz they're

  654. 23:25

    they're so scary.

  655. 23:26

    >> I got So So I am I'm afraid of horses.

  656. 23:29

    >> Okay.

  657. 23:29

    >> Like they scare me. I respect them.

  658. 23:31

    They're beautiful, but I don't I don't

  659. 23:33

    mess around with horses.

  660. 23:35

    >> Yeah. Then that's really wise. I feel

  661. 23:37

    like when you know that you're really

  662. 23:38

    tapping into the empathy of the horse

  663. 23:40

    because like

  664. 23:41

    >> Yes. I don't want to startle them.

  665. 23:43

    >> Yes.

  666. 23:43

    >> And I'm a little nervous. I don't want

  667. 23:44

    to make them nervous.

  668. 23:46

    >> Yes.

  669. 23:46

    >> And there are some people that are just

  670. 23:48

    so so good with them. And I I feel like

  671. 23:51

    I feel to horses like people who who

  672. 23:53

    don't want to have children feel towards

  673. 23:54

    children. Yeah. Which is like I think

  674. 23:56

    that's great for you.

  675. 23:58

    >> Yes. Not my journey.

  676. 23:59

    >> And I want people who want to ride

  677. 24:00

    horses to ride horses. Not my journey.

  678. 24:02

    >> Exactly.

  679. 24:02

    >> They're so tall. Their eyes are so Their

  680. 24:08

    mouths are enormous.

  681. 24:09

    >> Enormous. And they like Yeah. Yes.

  682. 24:12

    >> Yeah.

  683. 24:13

    >> They don't make that sound.

  684. 24:15

    >> I was nervous like I I we like I was

  685. 24:17

    shoveling the [ __ ] in the stalls with

  686. 24:19

    the horses also. So you can imagine not

  687. 24:21

    loving and like the like sort of like

  688. 24:24

    moving around the horse to like shovel

  689. 24:26

    it [ __ ] into the thing. I was like it

  690. 24:28

    was not Yeah.

  691. 24:29

    >> That's funny. Like that's like not going

  692. 24:31

    into the family business is not liking

  693. 24:33

    horses.

  694. 24:34

    >> Yes. I was blasting Britney Spears and

  695. 24:37

    Steven Sonheim on the like on the tape

  696. 24:40

    player in the barn shoveling the

  697. 24:42

    horseshit being like this I don't fit

  698. 24:44

    here.

  699. 24:45

    >> I love that. I loved your Tony speech

  700. 24:48

    when you thanked your family and your

  701. 24:50

    brother, your parents like for like

  702. 24:51

    letting you just be you in like they

  703. 24:55

    really did that, right? You were you

  704. 24:57

    were exactly that singing and dressing

  705. 24:59

    up and getting to do stuff and everybody

  706. 25:01

    was like that's

  707. 25:02

    >> that's our Jonathan.

  708. 25:04

    >> We have this VHS of my of me dressed as

  709. 25:07

    Mary Poppins. I was three and my mom and

  710. 25:09

    my dad like they I had lipstick and a

  711. 25:12

    carpet bag and a hat and a dress and

  712. 25:15

    we're on my grandfather's Menanite farm

  713. 25:18

    Wade and I'm like with the with the

  714. 25:20

    carpet bag like and in the background

  715. 25:22

    you can hear him going Mary.

  716. 25:26

    Oh Mary,

  717. 25:28

    not even really clocking the gay joke

  718. 25:29

    that he's making by calling me Mary but

  719. 25:32

    >> which then became a very successful

  720. 25:34

    Broadway show.

  721. 25:35

    >> Exactly. And that's where that's where

  722. 25:37

    Cole got the idea.

  723. 25:38

    >> Cole got the idea.

  724. 25:41

    >> Oh my god. Totally. Yeah. Yeah.

  725. 25:45

    >> And who was saying that? Was your dad

  726. 25:46

    saying that?

  727. 25:47

    >> My Menanite grandfather preacher Wade.

  728. 25:51

    >> Oh, Wade.

  729. 25:52

    >> So incredible. They let me They I think

  730. 25:56

    if they had like equated putting this

  731. 25:58

    young boy in a gown

  732. 26:01

    may open up homosexuality in him. It's

  733. 26:04

    like an on-ramp to gayness. They may not

  734. 26:07

    have done it, but this was like before

  735. 26:08

    the internet and like they they just

  736. 26:11

    beautifully allowed me to to

  737. 26:14

    >> so great

  738. 26:14

    >> fly my freak flag.

  739. 26:17

    >> Yes. And I hear did you play um Dorothy

  740. 26:20

    in the Wizard of Oz? I I did as well.

  741. 26:23

    >> What age did you play Dorothy?

  742. 26:25

    >> At four.

  743. 26:26

    >> What did you bring to the role? How did

  744. 26:28

    you how did you see her?

  745. 26:32

    >> At four. I brought a lot. There's also

  746. 26:34

    video of that. I brought a lot of um

  747. 26:38

    >> I brought a real like a I was screaming

  748. 26:40

    a lot.

  749. 26:41

    >> Yeah.

  750. 26:44

    >> And it's a lot OF ME GOING LIKE

  751. 26:46

    >> CUZ OF THE TORNADO.

  752. 26:47

    >> YEAH.

  753. 26:48

    >> YEAH.

  754. 26:48

    >> YES.

  755. 26:48

    >> You were playing the tornado.

  756. 26:50

    >> Yeah. I was like I was very tornado

  757. 26:51

    forward in my interpretation.

  758. 26:53

    >> Interesting. You So you were interested

  759. 26:54

    in the the like the trauma before the

  760. 26:57

    the yellow brick was

  761. 26:58

    >> Yes. I held that like that I carried

  762. 27:00

    through. Yeah. M what was your on?

  763. 27:02

    >> Thank you for asking. I I was in fourth

  764. 27:04

    grade and I was really in I was in

  765. 27:06

    fourth grade a little older, a little

  766. 27:07

    wiser. I knew we were going to be okay,

  767. 27:09

    I think.

  768. 27:10

    >> But I was really interested in the like

  769. 27:13

    the follow me aspect. I was very much

  770. 27:15

    like come on over here. Come on. Like

  771. 27:18

    very very into like

  772. 27:19

    >> leading lady

  773. 27:20

    >> follow the like follow the yellow brick

  774. 27:22

    road. Like let's go. The the let's go of

  775. 27:24

    Dorothy. like the I love the skipping

  776. 27:27

    and the running around and just like the

  777. 27:30

    journey part. I was really into that

  778. 27:31

    part and the tornado

  779. 27:34

    I just um I just went internal. I just

  780. 27:38

    really small.

  781. 27:40

    >> You were more you were more like the

  782. 27:41

    phoenix rising from the ashes. You were

  783. 27:43

    like leading everyone somewhere.

  784. 27:45

    >> It was just in my eyes. The tornado was

  785. 27:47

    in your eyes.

  786. 27:48

    >> Yeah. It was like a quick look like

  787. 27:49

    blink and you miss it.

  788. 27:52

    >> I went, "What was that?

  789. 27:53

    >> Wait, is she okay?" But then immediately

  790. 27:55

    you were leading us. Yeah. Oh, it's so

  791. 27:57

    much smarter.

  792. 27:58

    >> [ __ ]

  793. 27:59

    >> Lions and tigers and bears.

  794. 28:01

    >> Oh my.

  795. 28:11

    >> Okay. But so then you're on the you're

  796. 28:13

    on the farm. You're scared of horses.

  797. 28:15

    You're singing.

  798. 28:17

    >> What makes you you you're going to go to

  799. 28:19

    college and then you GET A PART?

  800. 28:25

    IT REALLY IS as you describe. You're on

  801. 28:27

    the farm. You're with the horses. You're

  802. 28:29

    singing. What?

  803. 28:33

    >> What is going to happen? When I listen

  804. 28:35

    to the original cast recording of

  805. 28:37

    Company, I still smell horse.

  806. 28:39

    >> I still have the sense memory of

  807. 28:41

    smelling listening to it in the bar.

  808. 28:43

    >> It smells like Yeah, it smells like like

  809. 28:45

    um like the pile of manure that we would

  810. 28:48

    make from the stall.

  811. 28:50

    >> How did you get those records? Like who

  812. 28:52

    to who how did you find out about what

  813. 28:54

    was the what was the musical that made

  814. 28:56

    you fall in love? Was it the Hor

  815. 28:59

    is even funny or not? I can't believe I

  816. 29:02

    haven't thought about this Amy in so

  817. 29:03

    long. When you say record, I went to the

  818. 29:06

    Lancaster Public Library

  819. 29:09

    >> and got the record LP. I mean, it's not

  820. 29:12

    like this was like the ' 60s. This was

  821. 29:14

    like 1992. But I I got the

  822. 29:18

    >> the the LP record of Ethel Murman

  823. 29:21

    singing uh Annie Get Your Gun.

  824. 29:25

    >> Wow.

  825. 29:25

    >> And I would play the record of Annie Get

  826. 29:28

    Your Gun over and over again. And we had

  827. 29:31

    a record player in my house growing up

  828. 29:34

    and like a giant computer, you know,

  829. 29:37

    remember like the early computers? and

  830. 29:39

    like a hand thing that was like doing

  831. 29:42

    the video games and I would be playing a

  832. 29:44

    like very basic video game and blasting

  833. 29:47

    Ethel Murman singing. Um,

  834. 29:49

    >> do you remember h what like a young how

  835. 29:52

    a young boy discovered Ethel Murman?

  836. 29:55

    It's amazing

  837. 29:57

    who how did you find out about her?

  838. 30:01

    They took us to see the high school play

  839. 30:04

    of Annie Get Your Gun

  840. 30:06

    >> and I was like when it got to

  841. 30:08

    intermission

  842. 30:09

    >> Yeah.

  843. 30:09

    >> and they were like, "Okay, now we're

  844. 30:10

    going to go to the bathroom and then

  845. 30:12

    we're going to come back." I was like,

  846. 30:13

    "There's more

  847. 30:15

    >> after that." There's I We're going to

  848. 30:17

    come back and it's going to happen

  849. 30:19

    again. There's going to be more story. I

  850. 30:22

    was so excited.

  851. 30:23

    >> Did you ever go into New York when you

  852. 30:25

    were a kid and see a show?

  853. 30:26

    >> Yeah, I went. That was the And you get

  854. 30:28

    your gun moment happened when I was in

  855. 30:30

    like fourth grade and that's when I went

  856. 30:32

    to the library then and got the record

  857. 30:33

    and was obsessed. And then my my mom

  858. 30:36

    started taking me on bus trips to see

  859. 30:38

    Broadway shows and that was like fifth

  860. 30:40

    grade, sixth grade,

  861. 30:42

    >> middle school. Then I started going

  862. 30:43

    >> What did you see back then?

  863. 30:45

    >> I saw Beauty and the Beast. I saw

  864. 30:47

    Greece. I saw Annie Get Your Gun with

  865. 30:50

    Bernardet Peters, which I was like

  866. 30:51

    losing my mind for. Um, I saw in high

  867. 30:55

    school I saw Thoroughly Modern Millie

  868. 30:56

    six times. Obsessed.

  869. 30:59

    >> You were obsessed with Sutton Foster.

  870. 31:01

    >> Yeah. Obsessed.

  871. 31:03

    Obsessed with her. Yeah.

  872. 31:04

    >> What was it about her that you loved?

  873. 31:07

    >> She would like

  874. 31:08

    >> to you.

  875. 31:10

    >> She on stage. Well, on stage is a couple

  876. 31:14

    of things. She would like be right here.

  877. 31:17

    >> Mhm. There was a level of presence about

  878. 31:20

    her

  879. 31:21

    >> that was so magnetic and I couldn't

  880. 31:25

    >> like

  881. 31:26

    stop looking at her when she wasn't

  882. 31:28

    speaking in scenes. I would be staring

  883. 31:30

    at Sutton because she felt so alive.

  884. 31:32

    >> And then she had been the understudy in

  885. 31:34

    that show out of town and replaced and

  886. 31:37

    kind of was like pushed out into the

  887. 31:40

    front um to take on that role in which

  888. 31:43

    she was like 28 years old. And there was

  889. 31:46

    almost like like when it's really hot um

  890. 31:49

    when it's really hot and you're driving

  891. 31:52

    and you see those waves of heat coming

  892. 31:54

    off the road.

  893. 31:56

    >> You know that when you're like in the

  894. 31:57

    car and you're like wo it's so hot that

  895. 31:59

    you can see the air is like

  896. 32:02

    >> that was what was coming off of her body

  897. 32:04

    >> when I when I in my experience and my

  898. 32:06

    memory of watching her and

  899. 32:08

    >> it was like heat was coming off of her.

  900. 32:10

    >> And you were still in high school. You

  901. 32:11

    would you did you know you were going to

  902. 32:13

    be an actor? Did you know did you have a

  903. 32:15

    sense that you were going to move to New

  904. 32:18

    York and be an actor at that point?

  905. 32:20

    >> Yeah, once I was in high school there

  906. 32:22

    there was two community theaters in my

  907. 32:23

    hometown. The Fulton Theater and the

  908. 32:25

    Effort of Performing Arts Center.

  909. 32:27

    They're both still there.

  910. 32:28

    >> And uh at the Fulton Theater, I was

  911. 32:30

    meeting actors that they hired from New

  912. 32:33

    York to play the leads.

  913. 32:34

    >> Oh wow.

  914. 32:35

    >> And I would like I was obsessed with all

  915. 32:37

    of them. One of them is in Just in Time.

  916. 32:39

    >> Whoa. this a woman named Terry Kelly who

  917. 32:41

    was the lead of the show in 2001 at the

  918. 32:44

    Fulton is now one of our amazing swings

  919. 32:46

    in just in time. So we have a full

  920. 32:47

    circle moment there. But

  921. 32:49

    >> yeah, I I started to dream about moving

  922. 32:51

    to New York. That's when I learned that

  923. 32:52

    you could go to open calls

  924. 32:54

    >> and I did that my senior year of high

  925. 32:56

    school. I went to like an open call for

  926. 32:58

    the Son of Music tour

  927. 32:59

    >> and got it and went on the road and then

  928. 33:01

    moved to New York.

  929. 33:02

    >> And we were you you basically told your

  930. 33:03

    parents I'm not going to college. They

  931. 33:05

    really they said if you want to go to

  932. 33:08

    college we will find a way to pay for

  933. 33:11

    this for you

  934. 33:12

    >> but it's so expensive and like are you

  935. 33:15

    sure you want to major in theater?

  936. 33:17

    >> Yeah

  937. 33:17

    >> cuz what's that going to get you at the

  938. 33:20

    end of 4 years all this money and I was

  939. 33:22

    like I it's my passion. It's what I want

  940. 33:25

    to do. And my dad I remember like a late

  941. 33:27

    night with my dad sitting in his chair

  942. 33:29

    and he was like

  943. 33:31

    if this is really what you want to do

  944. 33:33

    we'll figure it out. And I was like,

  945. 33:35

    "Okay, thanks, Dad." But then I went to

  946. 33:37

    New York and auditioned for this tour

  947. 33:39

    and got it. And I went on the road and I

  948. 33:42

    deferred my admission from college

  949. 33:44

    >> and I made $10,000 in the year of

  950. 33:47

    working on this non-union tour. Carnegie

  951. 33:49

    Melon at that time was $40,000 a year.

  952. 33:51

    That's where I deferred my admission.

  953. 33:53

    >> And I was like, I'll never be able to

  954. 33:56

    pay

  955. 33:57

    >> Mhm.

  956. 33:58

    >> this off.

  957. 33:59

    >> Mhm.

  958. 33:59

    >> And my parents were like, right,

  959. 34:02

    >> take your money, go to New York. Yeah.

  960. 34:04

    >> See if it works out. If it doesn't work

  961. 34:06

    out,

  962. 34:07

    >> come back and go to college for

  963. 34:09

    something else. So, that was the plan.

  964. 34:10

    >> And then 21 years old, you get nominated

  965. 34:13

    for a Tony. 21. I mean, Spring

  966. 34:17

    Awakening.

  967. 34:23

    I'm feeling Dorothy. I'M FEELING

  968. 34:25

    DOROTHY. I MEAN, that musical. I saw you

  969. 34:29

    in that musical. I saw The Ridge.

  970. 34:31

    >> A Come on. So amazing. So I mean an

  971. 34:36

    original musical that's so successful

  972. 34:38

    that that age.

  973. 34:41

    >> I mean I don't I guess my question to

  974. 34:43

    you is like now you've got some time

  975. 34:45

    right now and you and you did the

  976. 34:47

    documentary. You produced a documentary.

  977. 34:50

    >> You really know your stuff, Amy.

  978. 34:52

    >> I try my best.

  979. 34:52

    >> Such a hard worker.

  980. 34:53

    >> But I mean you're you're like looping

  981. 34:54

    back around it now. So, you've got now

  982. 34:56

    you've been able to look back like

  983. 34:59

    looking back now at that at that boy.

  984. 35:03

    >> Like what what do you take away from

  985. 35:06

    that moment now? Like with distance and

  986. 35:08

    time, what are you so grateful for about

  987. 35:10

    that moment?

  988. 35:11

    >> Oh my god. Um

  989. 35:15

    it was like getting picked up and put

  990. 35:19

    somewhere else. It was like the claw

  991. 35:22

    coming and just like

  992. 35:25

    >> that's a good way to think about it

  993. 35:26

    >> of it was like

  994. 35:28

    >> thoroughly modern Millie which I had

  995. 35:30

    seen six times. The director of Spring

  996. 35:33

    Awakening is Michael Mayer the director

  997. 35:34

    of Thoroughly Modern Millie. Wow.

  998. 35:36

    >> Like I I I I

  999. 35:41

    it was it was a combination of feeling

  1000. 35:42

    like I got picked up and put somewhere

  1001. 35:44

    and I remember auditioning for it.

  1002. 35:47

    And I I remember calling my dad on the

  1003. 35:50

    phone the the night before the call back

  1004. 35:54

    and saying,

  1005. 35:56

    "I can't do this right now, but I know

  1006. 36:00

    that I could do it if they gave me the

  1007. 36:02

    chance." Like

  1008. 36:03

    >> why why the can't why why were you

  1009. 36:04

    thinking you couldn't do it? cuz I knew

  1010. 36:06

    I I I like my talent was not

  1011. 36:10

    >> I just like I I didn't really have the

  1012. 36:12

    proper

  1013. 36:13

    like gifts like this my singing was I

  1014. 36:16

    didn't have my singing together but I

  1015. 36:18

    had this like primal thing down in my

  1016. 36:21

    like gut

  1017. 36:22

    >> that was like I have to play this role

  1018. 36:25

    >> and they let me do it and it was like

  1019. 36:28

    >> so then this thing in me got to like

  1020. 36:32

    it's like those opportunities like you

  1021. 36:34

    you get that opportunity And especially

  1022. 36:36

    with theater because

  1023. 36:38

    >> it's almost religious because you're

  1024. 36:40

    repeating

  1025. 36:41

    >> and when you repeat things over and over

  1026. 36:43

    again, it can change you from the inside

  1027. 36:46

    out. Uh, and I've it like

  1028. 36:50

    like um made me the the it like taught

  1029. 36:55

    me how to act and taught me how to sing.

  1030. 36:57

    And there was and I was in the closet

  1031. 36:59

    during that whole show

  1032. 37:02

    >> and I had my roommate Cody that was my

  1033. 37:05

    boyfriend.

  1034. 37:06

    >> And when I left that show, I came out of

  1035. 37:10

    the closet a month later because this

  1036. 37:12

    this like rebel that was this character,

  1037. 37:14

    this person that didn't care, didn't let

  1038. 37:17

    the world define him. This was what I

  1039. 37:19

    was playing. Like you said, um I'm a

  1040. 37:22

    people pleaser. I'm a I'm like like

  1041. 37:26

    prioritizing niceness, prioritizing like

  1042. 37:29

    making sure everybody feels good.

  1043. 37:32

    >> Yeah.

  1044. 37:32

    >> And coming out felt like that would

  1045. 37:35

    create a dissonance

  1046. 37:36

    >> and I it was really hard for me to do

  1047. 37:38

    that.

  1048. 37:39

    >> Yeah.

  1049. 37:39

    >> And that playing the role in that show

  1050. 37:43

    allowed me to grow the muscle to be able

  1051. 37:45

    to do that.

  1052. 37:46

    >> So cool.

  1053. 37:47

    >> So cool.

  1054. 37:47

    >> And you you you put that in such a

  1055. 37:49

    beautiful way. I think people often

  1056. 37:52

    underestimate that sometimes the

  1057. 37:54

    struggle to live authentically

  1058. 37:56

    doesn't have as much to do with how you

  1059. 37:58

    feel about yourself as it does in the

  1060. 38:01

    worry of how it will change the

  1061. 38:03

    temperature in the room. Like how it

  1062. 38:05

    will change the dynamic in the family,

  1063. 38:06

    how it will make other people feel. It's

  1064. 38:09

    often like

  1065. 38:10

    >> told through like a inner struggle when

  1066. 38:12

    sometimes the struggle is really about

  1067. 38:14

    how will other people change.

  1068. 38:16

    >> Like how will they feel? Yes. And and

  1069. 38:19

    were your how how did your family feel?

  1070. 38:21

    How did they how did were they surprised

  1071. 38:28

    >> cut to

  1072. 38:31

    me screaming as a way was like well

  1073. 38:35

    >> my men and her grandmother was like who

  1074. 38:37

    is that little girl in the in the in the

  1075. 38:40

    Wizard of Oz for they're like that was

  1076. 38:42

    Jonathan. It was

  1077. 38:43

    >> were they were they surprised? I mean

  1078. 38:45

    like

  1079. 38:45

    >> my dad was surprised. My brother was

  1080. 38:47

    surpris my I told my brother first

  1081. 38:50

    >> that's nice

  1082. 38:50

    >> and he was like what

  1083. 38:52

    >> he was surprised

  1084. 38:54

    >> which like yeah my mom said that she

  1085. 38:58

    kind of knew

  1086. 39:00

    >> it was it was like complicated and and

  1087. 39:05

    cut to like

  1088. 39:07

    >> whatever two or three Christmases later

  1089. 39:09

    and they're handing presents to my

  1090. 39:11

    boyfriend that's home for the holidays.

  1091. 39:13

    So it like

  1092. 39:14

    >> very quickly it took a minute for them

  1093. 39:16

    to digest it all.

  1094. 39:17

    >> Sure.

  1095. 39:18

    >> And then ultimately it's been great.

  1096. 39:21

    >> Yeah. Amazing. So so much happening in

  1097. 39:23

    your 20s. Like so much. And then you go

  1098. 39:26

    on Glee, which is this insanely popular

  1099. 39:28

    show

  1100. 39:29

    >> with your buddy Leah and like you just

  1101. 39:31

    >> you're just

  1102. 39:33

    >> you're just everything is happening

  1103. 39:34

    really fast. Yeah,

  1104. 39:35

    >> it feels like that when I look at your

  1105. 39:37

    stuff like that that your 20's is just

  1106. 39:39

    like things are really moving and

  1107. 39:41

    chugging along and you're just working

  1108. 39:43

    like crazy and being like a New York

  1109. 39:45

    kid.

  1110. 39:46

    >> Yeah.

  1111. 39:47

    >> Yeah. Because you have a quality about

  1112. 39:49

    you that's very young.

  1113. 39:51

    >> You've been told that, I'm sure.

  1114. 39:52

    >> I feel it. Yeah. I feel

  1115. 39:55

    eternally young in a certain way. I'm

  1116. 39:57

    I'm very like excitable.

  1117. 39:59

    >> Do you have an age you feel like you

  1118. 40:01

    are? Like do you know what I mean? Like

  1119. 40:03

    that you relate to? Right now I feel

  1120. 40:04

    about 15.

  1121. 40:06

    >> Yeah. I feel I

  1122. 40:09

    >> You're just picking people up left and

  1123. 40:11

    right.

  1124. 40:11

    >> I'm picking you up drinking black.

  1125. 40:13

    >> I feel like I feel like we're on the

  1126. 40:15

    like high school news. Like I did like

  1127. 40:18

    the high school news.

  1128. 40:20

    >> Remember like

  1129. 40:23

    >> Good morning everyone. It is December

  1130. 40:25

    16th.

  1131. 40:26

    >> Very high school news. I'm having like a

  1132. 40:29

    I'm having a hot flash right now.

  1133. 40:30

    >> Yeah. It's giving high school news

  1134. 40:32

    station.

  1135. 40:32

    >> Very high school. Yeah. We're on the

  1136. 40:33

    morning announcements.

  1137. 40:36

    >> We would both of us would have

  1138. 40:38

    definitely done morning announcements

  1139. 40:39

    >> for

  1140. 40:40

    >> my dream.

  1141. 40:42

    >> Sure.

  1142. 40:42

    >> My dream. I would have had a big crush

  1143. 40:44

    on you and people would like

  1144. 40:45

    >> I would have been just following your

  1145. 40:46

    Dorothy leads

  1146. 40:47

    >> and people would have been like Jonathan

  1147. 40:48

    does not have a crush on you. Okay.

  1148. 40:51

    You're not his type. Um

  1149. 40:55

    like I don't know. I think I can get

  1150. 40:56

    him. I think I can win him over.

  1151. 41:01

    >> Oh yeah. would have been totally us on

  1152. 41:04

    the news.

  1153. 41:04

    >> Then you're on Looking, which is this

  1154. 41:06

    first show on HBO to

  1155. 41:09

    feature a gay man as the lead. Is that

  1156. 41:12

    real?

  1157. 41:12

    >> Is that real? Is that right?

  1158. 41:14

    >> I don't know. I saw it on the internet,

  1159. 41:15

    but who knows? We We don't have We don't

  1160. 41:17

    have time to figure that out. But

  1161. 41:19

    incredible. Like, but that's a big jump

  1162. 41:21

    to be coming out in a few years later

  1163. 41:23

    playing like a really fully realized,

  1164. 41:26

    sophisticated single man looking for

  1165. 41:29

    love. That's a big jump. Yeah, it was it

  1166. 41:31

    was like I I um I'm really riding the

  1167. 41:34

    wave here of of life and of of progress.

  1168. 41:38

    And when they they initially like send

  1169. 41:41

    me that audition, I said no. I felt um

  1170. 41:46

    scared to be gay on a TV show. One thing

  1171. 41:49

    to be out publicly and another thing to

  1172. 41:51

    be like

  1173. 41:53

    like eating ass on TV

  1174. 41:57

    >> only in film.

  1175. 42:01

    It's like I'm gay and then and then it's

  1176. 42:03

    like okay gruff like we get it like to

  1177. 42:05

    see me in different positions and like

  1178. 42:06

    >> but I mean you actually bring up a

  1179. 42:09

    really good

  1180. 42:11

    >> you bring up a good point which is it's

  1181. 42:13

    it's very hard to do intimate scenes no

  1182. 42:17

    matter what to be

  1183. 42:20

    >> but it's funny cuz

  1184. 42:21

    >> you didn't care.

  1185. 42:22

    >> No, in Spring Awakening I was like let's

  1186. 42:24

    go.

  1187. 42:25

    >> It's true. You already did that. You

  1188. 42:26

    already ate ass.

  1189. 42:30

    in a different way.

  1190. 42:31

    >> In a different way, I felt a kind of

  1191. 42:33

    like um safety with women

  1192. 42:38

    >> uh because they didn't feel like there

  1193. 42:39

    was as much at stake and we could really

  1194. 42:41

    like go for it. It felt like

  1195. 42:43

    >> it in some ways like it felt like

  1196. 42:46

    >> back then like like what I wished I was

  1197. 42:51

    like like wishing I wasn't gay, wishing

  1198. 42:53

    I was straight and it was like this is

  1199. 42:55

    who I wish I could be. It felt like

  1200. 42:56

    dreaming it like like changing who I was

  1201. 42:59

    like a fantasy of what I wished I could

  1202. 43:01

    be.

  1203. 43:02

    >> But then when they send me these scripts

  1204. 43:04

    and it's

  1205. 43:06

    actually how I am, it's it then does

  1206. 43:09

    become a little bit scary.

  1207. 43:11

    >> But I'd seen Andrew Hag when he became

  1208. 43:14

    attached as the director. I'd seen his

  1209. 43:16

    film Weekend at the IFC on 6th Avenue

  1210. 43:20

    and I was like a wreck like crying in

  1211. 43:23

    that movie theater because I'd never

  1212. 43:24

    seen something that felt so real.

  1213. 43:26

    >> And so when he became attached as the

  1214. 43:28

    director then I was like no-brainer.

  1215. 43:30

    Yes, I want to do this. I want to work

  1216. 43:32

    with this man. And that the way that he

  1217. 43:34

    tells those stories meant meant so much

  1218. 43:36

    to me in that movie and I want to do

  1219. 43:37

    this with him. But at the audition,

  1220. 43:40

    I was shaking and I felt sort of like

  1221. 43:44

    sudden when I'm talking about the heat

  1222. 43:45

    coming off of the body. My whole body

  1223. 43:49

    went hot and I went I blush. I was like

  1224. 43:52

    blushing and it was like spring

  1225. 43:54

    awakening a another role that I was like

  1226. 43:59

    almost like a ring of fire birth into a

  1227. 44:02

    new version of self like therapy

  1228. 44:04

    >> like a sematic exorcism and you knew it

  1229. 44:08

    was right because you were feeling it so

  1230. 44:10

    big.

  1231. 44:10

    >> And they asked me to be in the in the

  1232. 44:12

    the to be the grand marshall of the gay

  1233. 44:14

    pride parade. I told my parents when I

  1234. 44:16

    came out like 5 years before. I was

  1235. 44:19

    like, "Hi. Uh, so Cody is not my

  1236. 44:22

    roommate. That Cody's my boyfriend and

  1237. 44:24

    I'm gay, but like I'm not going to like

  1238. 44:27

    be in a parade."

  1239. 44:31

    That's what I said when I came out. I

  1240. 44:33

    was so still full of shame. I was like,

  1241. 44:35

    I'm not but listen like I'm not holding

  1242. 44:36

    the flag. I'm not like the cut scene

  1243. 44:39

    eating ass on television. And then

  1244. 44:41

    ultimately

  1245. 44:43

    on the grand marshalling the the New

  1246. 44:45

    York Pride parade like with a sash, a

  1247. 44:48

    rainbow sash literally like elbow elbow

  1248. 44:50

    wrist wrists.

  1249. 44:53

    And I felt scared. I I still felt scared

  1250. 44:56

    back then. I I was like this feels like

  1251. 44:58

    right. It feels like the right thing to

  1252. 44:59

    do. But I'm LIKE

  1253. 45:03

    >> DOROTHY. You were like Dorothy

  1254. 45:05

    >> screaming as I'm getting pushed. what

  1255. 45:07

    doesn't this is an amazing theme I'm

  1256. 45:09

    realizing about you which is really

  1257. 45:11

    amazing is that you and I I think it may

  1258. 45:14

    also just come from like familial

  1259. 45:16

    unconditional love which I'm learning

  1260. 45:17

    more and more like when artists have it

  1261. 45:20

    they can take big chances you you took

  1262. 45:22

    you take a lot of chances when you're

  1263. 45:24

    like holy [ __ ]

  1264. 45:25

    >> yes

  1265. 45:25

    >> you do you do it though you do it

  1266. 45:28

    >> yes I think I'm a little drawn to it

  1267. 45:31

    >> I must be like magnetized to it and like

  1268. 45:33

    you said unconditional love I think

  1269. 45:35

    you're Right. There's a little bit of a

  1270. 45:36

    thing where like you I'll speak for

  1271. 45:39

    myself too coming from that background

  1272. 45:41

    where like I I don't want to bypass the

  1273. 45:44

    fact that there's a safety element that

  1274. 45:46

    I had in my in my youth that allows me

  1275. 45:48

    to do that. Now,

  1276. 45:49

    >> talk about it, Amy.

  1277. 45:50

    >> Because I like the I I I I think that

  1278. 45:54

    there's

  1279. 45:54

    >> you cannot discount that feeling that if

  1280. 45:57

    you had a safe home

  1281. 45:58

    >> in your professional life or your

  1282. 46:00

    creative life, you you just feel

  1283. 46:01

    sometimes like emboldened to take these

  1284. 46:03

    chances when they're given to you. And

  1285. 46:05

    that's definitely what you did because

  1286. 46:06

    it is

  1287. 46:07

    >> it is like you're just your career is

  1288. 46:10

    just like, "Yeah, let's try this. Let's

  1289. 46:12

    do this." And then looking happens and

  1290. 46:15

    then it it gets cancelled. Bummer. But

  1291. 46:18

    not really A BUMMER

  1292. 46:20

    because all of a sudden,

  1293. 46:23

    guess who's available for Hamilton?

  1294. 46:27

    Guess who's tech a veil for Hamilton?

  1295. 46:30

    >> Jonathan Grath. Another fear factor

  1296. 46:32

    thing though of like Brian Darcy James

  1297. 46:34

    originated that role

  1298. 46:37

    and then he his show something rotten

  1299. 46:39

    got fasttracked to Broadway unexpected

  1300. 46:41

    while they were in rehearsal for the

  1301. 46:43

    public theater

  1302. 46:44

    >> and I get a text from Lynn

  1303. 46:46

    >> who I had become friends with through

  1304. 46:48

    the years being like hey Brian has to

  1305. 46:50

    bail right after opening will you come

  1306. 46:52

    in off Broadway and do this for 2 months

  1307. 46:56

    >> um for the last two months of the off

  1308. 46:57

    Broadway run and he was like it's

  1309. 46:58

    basically just one song and it's on a

  1310. 47:01

    lot of moves and you and you'll be

  1311. 47:03

    great. And I was like, "Okay."

  1312. 47:05

    >> Wow.

  1313. 47:05

    >> And I and I said yes without hearing it,

  1314. 47:07

    knowing anything about it. They sent me

  1315. 47:09

    the song. I learned the song from like a

  1316. 47:12

    piano thing. And then I I saw it and

  1317. 47:14

    went in 2 days later. I was in LA at the

  1318. 47:16

    time.

  1319. 47:17

    >> And so I didn't know I had to have a

  1320. 47:20

    British accent.

  1321. 47:22

    >> And did you ever did you ever

  1322. 47:25

    >> No, I'm kidding.

  1323. 47:25

    >> Exactly. I mean, ACCENT IS PERFECT.

  1324. 47:28

    >> NO, but yes. drag me. But you're right.

  1325. 47:30

    No, I'm not dragging.

  1326. 47:32

    >> Not dragging. It's its own. It's its own

  1327. 47:36

    like your accent is its own. It's

  1328. 47:40

    delicious. When you say bake,

  1329. 47:44

    you'll be bake.

  1330. 47:46

    It's incredible.

  1331. 47:49

    >> Where did you come up with that accent?

  1332. 47:51

    >> When I went on the first day off

  1333. 47:53

    Broadway, it looked like I had won a

  1334. 47:55

    contest to be in Hamilton because I had

  1335. 47:57

    no sense of character. I had no They

  1336. 47:59

    were like, "You have to do like a

  1337. 48:00

    British accent." I was like, "But what?"

  1338. 48:02

    Every like everyone's black. Like I

  1339. 48:04

    don't like why I have to do a British

  1340. 48:06

    accent.

  1341. 48:07

    >> No one. You're right. No one's

  1342. 48:09

    historically accurate. Except

  1343. 48:11

    >> I have to do a British accent. And then

  1344. 48:13

    I saw it and I was like, "Oh, I get it.

  1345. 48:15

    I'm like the one thing." Okay.

  1346. 48:17

    >> Inc. It's And your the choice of your

  1347. 48:19

    voice is in your voice is incredible in

  1348. 48:21

    it. I love your accent.

  1349. 48:22

    >> So then Thank you. So then I I like Pipa

  1350. 48:26

    was like you could there's this the

  1351. 48:27

    woman at Giuliard that can help you. So

  1352. 48:29

    she's

  1353. 48:31

    I was like what I but here's the lesson

  1354. 48:34

    I learned too when I went on and I had

  1355. 48:35

    no character at all. I had no accent. I

  1356. 48:38

    was just trying to remember the words

  1357. 48:39

    and the notes and then walk off. It was

  1358. 48:41

    like they put me in a King thing and I

  1359. 48:42

    walked out there and I did what I could

  1360. 48:44

    remember and then they pulled me off.

  1361. 48:46

    >> But the song killed.

  1362. 48:48

    >> I mean one could even say stole the

  1363. 48:52

    show. But I I was like, I don't have to

  1364. 48:55

    do anything. I came out here, I have no

  1365. 48:56

    idea what I'm doing. Such a funny song.

  1366. 48:58

    This writing

  1367. 48:58

    >> Yes.

  1368. 48:59

    >> is so genius.

  1369. 49:00

    >> And the the device, sorry to interrupt,

  1370. 49:03

    the device of you being the lover, the

  1371. 49:08

    the the jilted lover saying you'll be

  1372. 49:11

    back is such a funny device for

  1373. 49:14

    >> It's so surprising.

  1374. 49:15

    >> It is. It's so funny.

  1375. 49:17

    >> It's like the first time people aren't

  1376. 49:19

    rapping. So the all the white people in

  1377. 49:22

    the audience are like, "Oh,

  1378. 49:26

    >> they're like, "Now this is how I

  1379. 49:28

    remember this is how I remember

  1380. 49:30

    Broadway."

  1381. 49:32

    >> Right.

  1382. 49:33

    >> It's It's so true. There's It's And it

  1383. 49:35

    is this great record scratch moment

  1384. 49:38

    >> in the show, which you know, look, we

  1385. 49:42

    don't we could talk forever about

  1386. 49:43

    Hamilton. is beyond genius in every way.

  1387. 49:46

    But it is you're it is so funny because

  1388. 49:49

    it reminds you for just a second of how

  1389. 49:52

    things used to be

  1390. 49:54

    >> vocally, lyrically, stylistically.

  1391. 49:57

    >> Yes. On so many levels. Yes. It's

  1392. 50:00

    hitting on so many levels. And that like

  1393. 50:03

    lesson of like, oh, I have no idea what

  1394. 50:06

    I'm doing, but this song is killing was

  1395. 50:09

    then when I was when then for the next

  1396. 50:11

    two months when I started to learn the

  1397. 50:14

    the very specific upper whatever accent

  1398. 50:18

    and I was watching all the also so

  1399. 50:20

    different than Brian RC James. I was

  1400. 50:21

    watching these clips of Barbara

  1401. 50:23

    Streryand uh um from her TV special My

  1402. 50:27

    Name is Barbara and I was watching her

  1403. 50:29

    >> come out on stage and like basically

  1404. 50:33

    like [ __ ] herself with her own voice

  1405. 50:35

    like like so so enjoy so small but like

  1406. 50:40

    >> enjoying every little I was like okay

  1407. 50:43

    and then I started to build the

  1408. 50:45

    character but it was I'd never built a

  1409. 50:48

    character in front of an audience in a

  1410. 50:50

    show before. Wow.

  1411. 50:51

    >> And so that was also a bit of like

  1412. 50:53

    getting pushed out there

  1413. 50:55

    >> and because the show is so great, I was

  1414. 50:57

    able to just play catchup because you

  1415. 51:00

    can be completely um

  1416. 51:04

    unaware of what you're doing, but sing

  1417. 51:06

    that song and it nails it.

  1418. 51:08

    >> And you're right. You were like seducing

  1419. 51:10

    us. You're very seductive and you're

  1420. 51:11

    very laconic as that character as like

  1421. 51:16

    >> talking about laconic. Tell me that.

  1422. 51:18

    >> I believe it means

  1423. 51:21

    sleepy like like just like not thirsty.

  1424. 51:26

    >> I have so many questions about backstage

  1425. 51:30

    >> at Hamilton.

  1426. 51:31

    >> Okay. Yeah.

  1427. 51:33

    >> Number one, were you allowed to come

  1428. 51:35

    late?

  1429. 51:38

    >> Did I come late or was I allowed to

  1430. 51:40

    come?

  1431. 51:41

    >> Because you were you had about an hour

  1432. 51:43

    before you were on, right? I had no I

  1433. 51:46

    was on in the first like 20 minutes, 25

  1434. 51:48

    minutes

  1435. 51:49

    >> and then you have a big break. Yeah. How

  1436. 51:51

    long? An hour.

  1437. 51:52

    >> Oh my god. So much time.

  1438. 51:56

    >> What do you do during that time?

  1439. 51:58

    >> Such a good question. Okay, so Bobby

  1440. 52:00

    Darren, I am off stage for 45 seconds in

  1441. 52:03

    the in the whatever two plus hour thing.

  1442. 52:06

    >> And this is my preferred I love being

  1443. 52:11

    out there. When we walked into the

  1444. 52:13

    dressing room at the Richard Rogers in

  1445. 52:16

    tech for Hamilton and Lynn and I were

  1446. 52:18

    sharing a dressing room space, I was

  1447. 52:21

    like whatever. Adena Menzel had done the

  1448. 52:23

    show right before if then. And I was my

  1449. 52:25

    dressing room was Adena's waiting room

  1450. 52:28

    and it was like a little closet

  1451. 52:30

    and I was like, "Oh, this is where I

  1452. 52:32

    live.

  1453. 52:33

    >> I'm on stage for 9 minutes, but this is

  1454. 52:36

    where I live." And I started to get

  1455. 52:38

    claustrophobic when I walked in of like,

  1456. 52:40

    "What am I going to do?

  1457. 52:42

    back here. Um,

  1458. 52:45

    and I read so many books.

  1459. 52:47

    >> You couldn't leave the building.

  1460. 52:49

    >> Leave. No, cuz you're in the white wig.

  1461. 52:52

    >> And the

  1462. 52:52

    >> You never ran out to get something and

  1463. 52:54

    took the wig off.

  1464. 52:56

    >> I never ran out to get something.

  1465. 52:58

    >> A good boy.

  1466. 52:59

    >> I That's so like because those you did a

  1467. 53:02

    lot of performances.

  1468. 53:03

    >> Yeah.

  1469. 53:04

    >> And I used to think about you backstage

  1470. 53:06

    and be like, what are what's he doing

  1471. 53:07

    back there? I ended up really learning

  1472. 53:10

    how to embrace well I would have

  1473. 53:13

    visitations from the cast so that there

  1474. 53:16

    would be like nightly visitations which

  1475. 53:18

    was great and kind of like

  1476. 53:20

    >> free hang time which was it was like we

  1477. 53:22

    I could have like done this and like we

  1478. 53:24

    could have done

  1479. 53:25

    >> announcements done morning

  1480. 53:26

    announcements.

  1481. 53:29

    >> It really feels like we're on the

  1482. 53:30

    morning announcements. Uh

  1483. 53:32

    >> but then I started reading all the books

  1484. 53:34

    that I wanted to read. I started to just

  1485. 53:36

    like boom boom boom boom knock through

  1486. 53:38

    them all and it became a very productive

  1487. 53:41

    time.

  1488. 53:42

    >> Cool. Very cool.

  1489. 53:43

    >> Yeah.

  1490. 53:44

    >> And then you had to come back out.

  1491. 53:46

    >> Mhm.

  1492. 53:47

    >> So that must have also been like Did you

  1493. 53:50

    ever miss a

  1494. 53:50

    >> queue? It's hard.

  1495. 53:52

    >> I can't believe I never missed a queue.

  1496. 53:54

    >> I know cuz it's hard when you I mean I

  1497. 53:56

    know you work with total professionals

  1498. 53:57

    who will make sure that you don't miss a

  1499. 53:59

    queue. I'm sure like all the stage

  1500. 54:00

    managers are like, "Um, yeah, you didn't

  1501. 54:02

    miss a queue cuz I told you." Exactly.

  1502. 54:04

    >> 10 minutes, baby. Exactly. But the but

  1503. 54:08

    the when you have that long stretch,

  1504. 54:09

    it's hard to get. It's just like having

  1505. 54:11

    one or two lines in a sketch, like you

  1506. 54:13

    really can screw it up.

  1507. 54:14

    >> Yeah. Right. It's like a little sprint.

  1508. 54:16

    And I also find always having one or two

  1509. 54:18

    lines to me is the hardest thing. Do you

  1510. 54:19

    find that? Like coming in killing and

  1511. 54:21

    leaving cold. Coming in cold.

  1512. 54:24

    >> Yes. I would have five Altoids in my

  1513. 54:26

    mouth when I came on stage because it

  1514. 54:28

    was like to open up my

  1515. 54:30

    >> Is that what they open up your

  1516. 54:31

    >> Yeah, that's I've now moved on to um

  1517. 54:34

    sugarfree black cherry halls. I have one

  1518. 54:37

    of those in my mouth for the entire show

  1519. 54:40

    since I did Little Shop in 2019. That's

  1520. 54:42

    my new thing. But in um

  1521. 54:44

    >> You're not afraid it's going to pop out

  1522. 54:46

    or shoot out?

  1523. 54:47

    >> You know, it's never shot out until like

  1524. 54:49

    5 days ago.

  1525. 54:49

    >> It did. popped out during Splishplash

  1526. 54:51

    and I was like I lost a tooth. Uh but

  1527. 54:54

    the

  1528. 54:57

    it bounced into the audience.

  1529. 54:58

    >> That's a really good Broadway story. It

  1530. 55:00

    popped out during Splishplash and it's

  1531. 55:02

    like thank god it was just your

  1532. 55:04

    >> bang bang. I saw the whole gang.

  1533. 55:08

    >> It came right out and went.

  1534. 55:10

    >> It's like why did he get fired? It

  1535. 55:12

    popped out during splish splash and it

  1536. 55:13

    wasn't supposed to.

  1537. 55:14

    >> I mean there popped it out. Yeah, he

  1538. 55:16

    popped it out during split.

  1539. 55:20

    >> I mean, I'm projecting because I used I

  1540. 55:22

    used to have a ton I don't know if you

  1541. 55:23

    did you ever have nightmares when have

  1542. 55:25

    you ever had Broadway nightmares where

  1543. 55:27

    you miss you're late or um like a stress

  1544. 55:31

    dream.

  1545. 55:31

    >> Oh yeah, I used to have stress dreams

  1546. 55:34

    all the time that there was a there was

  1547. 55:36

    like a staircase at SNL where you had to

  1548. 55:38

    kind of run down to get to to the studio

  1549. 55:41

    that I was running down and I was

  1550. 55:42

    hearing my cue. Oh, that's going to give

  1551. 55:45

    me nightmares tonight.

  1552. 55:46

    >> Yeah, but that I was missing a queue.

  1553. 55:48

    Missing a queue.

  1554. 55:50

    >> And those those used to give me like to

  1555. 55:52

    And to add to it, everyone I cared about

  1556. 55:54

    and whose opinion I cared about would be

  1557. 55:56

    on the stairs being like

  1558. 55:58

    >> you're late. You missed it.

  1559. 56:00

    >> We're not mad. We're just like

  1560. 56:01

    surprised. Yeah. I thought we Yeah.

  1561. 56:05

    >> Just can't believe Amy like of all

  1562. 56:07

    people missed the queue. Yeah.

  1563. 56:08

    >> I guess it's the disrespect for me. Oh,

  1564. 56:11

    >> and then let's talk about Merrily if we

  1565. 56:13

    can.

  1566. 56:14

    >> Of course,

  1567. 56:14

    >> that experience must have been just so

  1568. 56:18

    fulfilling in every way because to your

  1569. 56:20

    point of like being turning 40,

  1570. 56:23

    >> the show is all about the beginnings and

  1571. 56:26

    middle and ends of things and how life

  1572. 56:28

    feels like it's this shuffle of all

  1573. 56:31

    those things and

  1574. 56:32

    >> the friendships we make along the way.

  1575. 56:34

    And here you are like now, you know,

  1576. 56:37

    almost a 20-year vet in the business

  1577. 56:39

    when you're doing that show.

  1578. 56:42

    >> And I know how much Sonheim means to

  1579. 56:44

    you.

  1580. 56:45

    >> Yeah.

  1581. 56:45

    >> Smells like horse.

  1582. 56:46

    >> Yeah. He smells like horse. He helps you

  1583. 56:49

    like

  1584. 56:49

    >> Yeah.

  1585. 56:50

    >> When you were scared of those horses,

  1586. 56:52

    >> he probably has written a song about

  1587. 56:53

    horses. I'm sure there's

  1588. 56:55

    >> a reference to horse racing in Bobby and

  1589. 56:58

    Jackie and Jack, one of the songs in

  1590. 56:59

    Meril Roll. There's a famous horse

  1591. 57:01

    that's quoted in that song.

  1592. 57:04

    Um, but yeah, the it was so crazy

  1593. 57:07

    because I I moved to New York in 2004.

  1594. 57:12

    We did that show in 2024, so exactly 20

  1595. 57:16

    years to the year.

  1596. 57:18

    >> Um, it's about it takes place exactly

  1597. 57:20

    over 20 years and it's about looking

  1598. 57:22

    back. Um, in Maria Freriedman, our

  1599. 57:25

    incredible director's vision and staging

  1600. 57:28

    of the show at the very beginning,

  1601. 57:30

    Dan comes out over here. How did you get

  1602. 57:32

    to be here? What was the moment? Lindsay

  1603. 57:34

    comes out over here, over the shoulders

  1604. 57:36

    of Frank, the character I played. How

  1605. 57:38

    did you get to be here? What was the

  1606. 57:39

    moment in the exact positions 15 years

  1607. 57:43

    earlier? John Gallagher Jr. stood here

  1608. 57:46

    as a ghost in Spring Awakening. And Liam

  1609. 57:48

    Michelle stood stood over this shoulder.

  1610. 57:51

    Lindsay Menddees, LM, Liam Michelle, LM,

  1611. 57:54

    the same initials of the actresses

  1612. 57:56

    standing on this side of the thing. Talk

  1613. 57:58

    about sense memory. I had crazy things

  1614. 58:02

    come up on that one.

  1615. 58:05

    >> There would be moments where I because

  1616. 58:07

    also it was the most I think well he

  1617. 58:10

    said son it was the most

  1618. 58:12

    autobiographical thing he ever wrote.

  1619. 58:15

    He said that about the song Opening

  1620. 58:17

    Doors, but I have a feeling from all the

  1621. 58:20

    people that came through to see the show

  1622. 58:21

    that we could talk to after and the

  1623. 58:22

    people that knew him and how Prince and

  1624. 58:26

    Mary Rogers that this was about the his

  1625. 58:29

    him and his two friends and these

  1626. 58:31

    relationships that fracture over time

  1627. 58:34

    >> and the heartbreak and the

  1628. 58:36

    disappointment.

  1629. 58:37

    And I would be saying a line. I would be

  1630. 58:40

    saying a line to Lindsay on stage.

  1631. 58:42

    And I would say it and it would come out

  1632. 58:45

    and it would feel like Frank talking to

  1633. 58:49

    the character of Mary. It would feel

  1634. 58:51

    like Steve talking to Mary Rogers. It

  1635. 58:55

    would feel like Jonathan talking to

  1636. 58:56

    Lindsay in this like crazy like

  1637. 59:00

    therapeutic exorcism. Yeah. It was wild.

  1638. 59:04

    >> So cool.

  1639. 59:05

    >> Yeah.

  1640. 59:06

    >> Amazing. And then to like have that be

  1641. 59:09

    so

  1642. 59:11

    celebrated for it to really feel like

  1643. 59:12

    people were ready for it when because

  1644. 59:15

    for people who don't know this the the

  1645. 59:16

    history of that show is it really was

  1646. 59:18

    ahead of its time and it wasn't received

  1647. 59:20

    the way it was it should have been

  1648. 59:21

    received and it kind of like needed to

  1649. 59:23

    just marinate for some reason and much

  1650. 59:26

    like

  1651. 59:27

    >> the show itself like it needs time. So,

  1652. 59:30

    the show needed time and then it came

  1653. 59:32

    back out and it was celebrated and the

  1654. 59:34

    way it was celebrated, it must have been

  1655. 59:35

    so so satisfying. It must have just been

  1656. 59:37

    so satisfying.

  1657. 59:39

    >> It was every dream I ever had come true.

  1658. 59:41

    >> And then we made this movie of it.

  1659. 59:43

    >> Yes.

  1660. 59:44

    >> And that I went on Monday night last

  1661. 59:47

    week to go see it just in a normal movie

  1662. 59:50

    theater and I was like weeping just like

  1663. 59:54

    I cannot believe this. Cannot believe

  1664. 59:56

    how Maria the director directed it so

  1665. 59:59

    beautifully for film and and it's like

  1666. 1:00:02

    the hybrid between a like filming of a

  1667. 1:00:06

    theater piece and a movie like what she

  1668. 1:00:08

    made is so

  1669. 1:00:11

    unique and special and feeling the

  1670. 1:00:14

    audience in the movie theater get the

  1671. 1:00:16

    story and the idea that this was his big

  1672. 1:00:19

    flop of his career and apparently his

  1673. 1:00:21

    big heartbreak Steven Sanheim and Hal

  1674. 1:00:23

    Prince it was the end for many years of

  1675. 1:00:25

    their really fruitful over a decade long

  1676. 1:00:28

    collaboration

  1677. 1:00:30

    that this show is like captured in this

  1678. 1:00:33

    way and is playing in movie theaters is

  1679. 1:00:36

    like you can't it's so surreal.

  1680. 1:00:38

    >> Well, it's kind of like why longevity is

  1681. 1:00:41

    the goal in work and in life, you know,

  1682. 1:00:45

    knock on wood, right? Which is like if

  1683. 1:00:47

    you stick around long enough, like

  1684. 1:00:50

    things come back.

  1685. 1:00:52

    >> Yes. And I You're exactly right. And I

  1686. 1:00:54

    and this the ethos too of like if you

  1687. 1:00:57

    make something well

  1688. 1:00:59

    >> Mhm.

  1689. 1:01:00

    >> in the moment,

  1690. 1:01:02

    the faith that what you did in that

  1691. 1:01:06

    moment to make it well and then push

  1692. 1:01:09

    that boat out and then whatever that

  1693. 1:01:11

    boat's journey is is that boat's

  1694. 1:01:13

    journey, but that you put the time and

  1695. 1:01:16

    attention to detail and the care in the

  1696. 1:01:19

    thing that you were making. Merrily is

  1697. 1:01:21

    the perfect example of they put their

  1698. 1:01:23

    hearts and souls into that and they

  1699. 1:01:25

    pushed out that boat and it was not

  1700. 1:01:27

    received. But because it was crafted so

  1701. 1:01:30

    well and such a beautiful piece, 40

  1702. 1:01:32

    years later,

  1703. 1:01:33

    >> you're getting this boat is coming back

  1704. 1:01:36

    around

  1705. 1:01:37

    >> and because it was because the people

  1706. 1:01:38

    when they made it in the present moment

  1707. 1:01:40

    took such care,

  1708. 1:01:42

    >> it can exist and have this life. It

  1709. 1:01:43

    gives me such faith

  1710. 1:01:45

    >> in in when we're creating things

  1711. 1:01:47

    >> that when if we do it

  1712. 1:01:49

    >> with the proper intention and with

  1713. 1:01:52

    everything we've got

  1714. 1:01:53

    >> then you just set it free and if it hits

  1715. 1:01:57

    >> today we have people from like looking

  1716. 1:01:59

    we were canceled after two seasons

  1717. 1:02:02

    >> people still come up to me and say like

  1718. 1:02:03

    this show changed my life. There's like

  1719. 1:02:05

    a

  1720. 1:02:06

    >> if you if you do something with your

  1721. 1:02:07

    whole heart it can continue to resonate

  1722. 1:02:09

    and stand the test of time.

  1723. 1:02:11

    >> So cool. It's like sending out a missive

  1724. 1:02:15

    to space and just like it taking that

  1725. 1:02:17

    many light years to get there.

  1726. 1:02:19

    >> Yeah.

  1727. 1:02:20

    >> Lyrically,

  1728. 1:02:22

    what is a lyric for you that like still

  1729. 1:02:25

    bubbles in your head that you had to

  1730. 1:02:28

    sing? And what is one that was a hard

  1731. 1:02:31

    one to get? Like what was one that

  1732. 1:02:34

    always felt like a bit of a hurdle and

  1733. 1:02:36

    what was one that just tickles you still

  1734. 1:02:40

    like in your brain? It's from the song

  1735. 1:02:42

    growing up which is which which the

  1736. 1:02:44

    character of Frank sings. So old friends

  1737. 1:02:47

    >> don't you see we can have it all.

  1738. 1:02:51

    >> Moving on. Getting out of the past.

  1739. 1:02:55

    >> This is the one for me. You ready?

  1740. 1:02:56

    >> Yeah.

  1741. 1:02:58

    >> Solving dreams.

  1742. 1:03:01

    Not just trusting them.

  1743. 1:03:05

    >> Taking dreams. Readjusting them. Growing

  1744. 1:03:09

    up. growing up. This idea that you can

  1745. 1:03:13

    have these dreams as a kid and it's not

  1746. 1:03:16

    something that you either

  1747. 1:03:18

    >> make happen or you repress, but that you

  1748. 1:03:22

    take this dream and you figure out what

  1749. 1:03:25

    it was and what it still means to you.

  1750. 1:03:28

    Solving dreams, not just trusting them,

  1751. 1:03:30

    taking dreams, readjusting them, growing

  1752. 1:03:33

    up.

  1753. 1:03:34

    >> Yeah.

  1754. 1:03:34

    >> Come on.

  1755. 1:03:35

    >> Come on. That's major.

  1756. 1:03:37

    >> It's so good. It's so good. It's about

  1757. 1:03:40

    because there's like an element of like

  1758. 1:03:42

    being in relationship to the past but

  1759. 1:03:44

    not having it hold you down.

  1760. 1:03:46

    >> Yes.

  1761. 1:03:46

    >> It would bring up something for me every

  1762. 1:03:48

    single night different.

  1763. 1:03:50

    >> It's so good. And it's also also kind of

  1764. 1:03:53

    the theme of what we've been talking

  1765. 1:03:54

    about a little bit today. The idea of if

  1766. 1:03:56

    you're open and flexible to

  1767. 1:03:58

    readjustment, that is what like it's the

  1768. 1:04:02

    best you can hope for.

  1769. 1:04:03

    >> Yes.

  1770. 1:04:03

    >> Because nothing happens the way it's

  1771. 1:04:05

    supposed to ever. No. And you have to

  1772. 1:04:08

    only just kind of like stay steady and

  1773. 1:04:10

    flexible for what's coming.

  1774. 1:04:12

    >> Yes. It's such a paradox.

  1775. 1:04:14

    >> Yeah. It's so true. And what I love

  1776. 1:04:16

    about that too is is the friendship in

  1777. 1:04:21

    that show is like helps us solve

  1778. 1:04:26

    the dream part. Like the solving of the

  1779. 1:04:28

    dream like it's almost like it can't be

  1780. 1:04:30

    done alone.

  1781. 1:04:30

    >> Yes. And when I when I wanted to talk to

  1782. 1:04:34

    you today, like one of the things that I

  1783. 1:04:35

    wanted to talk to you today really is

  1784. 1:04:37

    about the friendships you have made in

  1785. 1:04:39

    the work that you do. I know it's really

  1786. 1:04:41

    important to you like you have really

  1787. 1:04:43

    made lifelong friends.

  1788. 1:04:45

    >> Yeah.

  1789. 1:04:45

    >> The people that you share the stage

  1790. 1:04:47

    with, like they share your life like

  1791. 1:04:49

    they're, you know, you do not leave

  1792. 1:04:51

    productions and say like, "Peace out.

  1793. 1:04:53

    See you later." Or like you're deep

  1794. 1:04:55

    friends with people for life that you've

  1795. 1:04:57

    worked with. It's really amazing. And it

  1796. 1:05:00

    >> Yes. It's interesting because I feel

  1797. 1:05:01

    like a little bit that starts from a

  1798. 1:05:05

    place

  1799. 1:05:06

    of like when I was closeted and and in

  1800. 1:05:09

    high school and in community theater. I

  1801. 1:05:11

    wonder if you feel this way too about

  1802. 1:05:13

    writing and performing like

  1803. 1:05:14

    >> you you go there because

  1804. 1:05:17

    >> you need that intimacy and you can't get

  1805. 1:05:20

    it in your real life for whatever

  1806. 1:05:21

    reason. And there's a and there's a like

  1807. 1:05:25

    >> deep primal need

  1808. 1:05:27

    >> to go and like connect with people. And

  1809. 1:05:29

    so that part of me is still alive. Like

  1810. 1:05:34

    I can't even though I think I'm I came

  1811. 1:05:36

    out of the closet. I'm I'm better

  1812. 1:05:38

    adjusted in my life. But when I go to

  1813. 1:05:41

    work, I don't go to work. I go to live.

  1814. 1:05:44

    >> And that and I I look at the people that

  1815. 1:05:46

    I'm with and it's deep and I and it's

  1816. 1:05:49

    it's like it's it's uh it's powerful and

  1817. 1:05:52

    it's and it's profound.

  1818. 1:05:54

    >> Yeah. Lindsay, Daniel, Leah, and can you

  1819. 1:05:57

    tell me can you tell me about Gavin

  1820. 1:05:59

    Creel, who I never got to meet. Will you

  1821. 1:06:02

    tell me just something about him

  1822. 1:06:03

    >> because I love hearing about him.

  1823. 1:06:06

    >> Oh my god. Yeah. Um, well, he changed my

  1824. 1:06:09

    life. He changed my life. Um,

  1825. 1:06:12

    because Well, okay. Oh my god. I'm going

  1826. 1:06:15

    to tell a memory that I have about him.

  1827. 1:06:18

    Please, for people who don't know,

  1828. 1:06:19

    Gavin's an amazing

  1829. 1:06:22

    >> performer who passed a few years ago,

  1830. 1:06:25

    two year, a year ago,

  1831. 1:06:26

    >> a year, a month or two ago now.

  1832. 1:06:28

    >> A little over a year ago.

  1833. 1:06:29

    >> An incredibly talented performer and a

  1834. 1:06:32

    dear, dear, dear friend of yours.

  1835. 1:06:33

    >> Yeah.

  1836. 1:06:34

    >> Yeah.

  1837. 1:06:35

    >> I think he would appreciate the story

  1838. 1:06:37

    that I'm about to tell.

  1839. 1:06:38

    >> Great.

  1840. 1:06:40

    >> Gavin, if you don't know Gavin, you have

  1841. 1:06:42

    to Google Gavin. Gavin like did a lot of

  1842. 1:06:44

    amazing things and is a profound amazing

  1843. 1:06:47

    person. My the first time I ever met

  1844. 1:06:51

    Gavin, I also dated Gavin. We had a

  1845. 1:06:53

    whole relationship. He's like what gave

  1846. 1:06:55

    me the confidence to come out of the

  1847. 1:06:57

    closet. He changed my life. But the

  1848. 1:06:59

    first time I ever met him

  1849. 1:07:02

    >> was uh at the stage door of Thoroughly

  1850. 1:07:05

    Modern Millie, which he was in opposite

  1851. 1:07:09

    Sutton. He played the role of Jimmy. And

  1852. 1:07:11

    I would wait at the stage door. Uh I was

  1853. 1:07:14

    in high school and the the actors would

  1854. 1:07:17

    come out and I was like I would I would

  1855. 1:07:20

    I was like crazy. I I like I I just

  1856. 1:07:23

    couldn't believe they were real people.

  1857. 1:07:25

    Like to see them would give me energy

  1858. 1:07:28

    >> and like get me like amped. Um, I have a

  1859. 1:07:31

    crazy story about Matthew Brderick that

  1860. 1:07:34

    we could share at some other time, but

  1861. 1:07:35

    um, meeting him at the stage door, but

  1862. 1:07:37

    um,

  1863. 1:07:38

    Gavin comes out and signs the program

  1864. 1:07:41

    and I was like, whoa. And then he goes

  1865. 1:07:43

    back into the stage door. And then Mark

  1866. 1:07:46

    Kudes, who played Trevor Graden, comes

  1867. 1:07:47

    out and he's signing my program and

  1868. 1:07:51

    Gavin comes back out the stage door with

  1869. 1:07:54

    an apple in his mouth and he walks past

  1870. 1:07:58

    Mark Kudish, grabs his ass and Mark goes

  1871. 1:08:02

    like "Oh."

  1872. 1:08:04

    And looks as Gavin is walking by and

  1873. 1:08:06

    Gavin just looks at him and winks

  1874. 1:08:09

    with the apple still in his mouth.

  1875. 1:08:10

    >> Oh my god, so hot. And I was like, I

  1876. 1:08:13

    have got to BE IN THE THEATER.

  1877. 1:08:16

    What is this? What is happening here?

  1878. 1:08:18

    Where this this beautiful man with an

  1879. 1:08:21

    apple in his mouth is like is like

  1880. 1:08:23

    tapping the ass of this other man and

  1881. 1:08:25

    they're like, but it's very free and it

  1882. 1:08:27

    doesn't necessarily feel sexual, but

  1883. 1:08:29

    there's a subtext of sexualness. And

  1884. 1:08:32

    like I was like, I've got to get into

  1885. 1:08:34

    this world.

  1886. 1:08:36

    That was the first time I like met

  1887. 1:08:37

    Gavin.

  1888. 1:08:39

    >> Just like what an entrance. What a what

  1889. 1:08:41

    a what a walk-on from him.

  1890. 1:08:43

    >> Totally.

  1891. 1:08:44

    >> And isn't it amazing when people come

  1892. 1:08:45

    into your life like they just are in

  1893. 1:08:48

    your simulation, but you don't know how

  1894. 1:08:50

    yet.

  1895. 1:08:50

    >> Yes. Yes.

  1896. 1:08:52

    >> They just walk in and it's like cue the

  1897. 1:08:54

    walk-on and it's like in 5 years you two

  1898. 1:08:57

    are going to be together, babe. And like

  1899. 1:08:58

    who knew?

  1900. 1:08:59

    >> Crazy. And I it was like primal. I still

  1901. 1:09:02

    can see it the whole thing playing out.

  1902. 1:09:04

    >> Okay. Um, thank you for telling me that

  1903. 1:09:06

    story and and for reminding us about

  1904. 1:09:10

    Kevin. And um, so speaking of um, of

  1905. 1:09:15

    friendships that you made and

  1906. 1:09:16

    relationships that you made, we spoke to

  1907. 1:09:18

    Gracie Lawrence today.

  1908. 1:09:21

    >> A new friend in a way, although she said

  1909. 1:09:23

    she feels like she's known you forever.

  1910. 1:09:25

    >> Oh my god.

  1911. 1:09:26

    >> And she um, you and her were in your

  1912. 1:09:30

    show together. You played Bobby Darren.

  1913. 1:09:32

    She played Connie Francis. you had to

  1914. 1:09:34

    really connect. She's incredibly

  1915. 1:09:36

    talented. Like she told a story about

  1916. 1:09:39

    meeting you for the first time. You know

  1917. 1:09:42

    what? And it was really like an apple in

  1918. 1:09:44

    the mouth story. Like you came into the

  1919. 1:09:47

    room and she felt this energy like he's

  1920. 1:09:51

    he's I mean because that's what I love

  1921. 1:09:53

    about you is you are a STAR

  1922. 1:09:56

    and I love stars

  1923. 1:10:00

    and don't you're a good boy. Hey, you're

  1924. 1:10:01

    a nice boy, but you're a star.

  1925. 1:10:04

    >> Don't let anyone tell you different.

  1926. 1:10:07

    >> So,

  1927. 1:10:07

    >> Oh, you're tickling me.

  1928. 1:10:09

    >> You are a star. You're a star. So, you

  1929. 1:10:12

    had a just a moment of like right and

  1930. 1:10:14

    she has that moment with you and she and

  1931. 1:10:17

    so she had a question she wanted me to

  1932. 1:10:19

    ask you which I it's very sweet question

  1933. 1:10:21

    and also you know she was like get ready

  1934. 1:10:23

    for some amazing eye contact. She said,

  1935. 1:10:24

    "Your eye contact is really great." And

  1936. 1:10:26

    it is really great.

  1937. 1:10:29

    And I thought I would be overwhelmed by

  1938. 1:10:31

    it, but I'm not at all.

  1939. 1:10:33

    >> You're also Your eye contact is also

  1940. 1:10:34

    very

  1941. 1:10:34

    >> I didn't want to say anything, but I

  1942. 1:10:36

    also have

  1943. 1:10:39

    >> And we'll be right back.

  1944. 1:10:43

    >> And make sure you guys that you get your

  1945. 1:10:46

    >> your yearbook. The yearbooks are being

  1946. 1:10:48

    passed out today. So, but I I don't mind

  1947. 1:10:50

    eye contact from the right person. Um,

  1948. 1:10:52

    but here but here's Gracie's question

  1949. 1:10:54

    and it was really cute question and she

  1950. 1:10:57

    said like you know she said she she's

  1951. 1:10:59

    like I've never seen him nervous or

  1952. 1:11:00

    anxious or rattled and she said or

  1953. 1:11:04

    frazzled you know is the word I think

  1954. 1:11:05

    she used and she said

  1955. 1:11:08

    you know he has like a Yodaike calm and

  1956. 1:11:12

    um she said why why aren't you more

  1957. 1:11:15

    scared of things um have you always been

  1958. 1:11:18

    this way and what if anything scares you

  1959. 1:11:22

    now little [ __ ] is what is what she

  1960. 1:11:24

    said is what she said. How she said it.

  1961. 1:11:27

    >> She said you little [ __ ]

  1962. 1:11:28

    >> You little [ __ ]

  1963. 1:11:29

    >> And it's funny cuz Gracie to me like I

  1964. 1:11:32

    love I love her so much. I love her so

  1965. 1:11:35

    [ __ ] hard. And to me like she has a

  1966. 1:11:40

    kind of

  1967. 1:11:41

    sociopathic calm when she's on stage and

  1968. 1:11:45

    her like like her I saw her like at

  1969. 1:11:47

    Lawrence at Radio City and she's like

  1970. 1:11:52

    She's like singing. She's a She's Tina

  1971. 1:11:54

    Turner basically. She's a rock star. The

  1972. 1:11:56

    first thing that's coming up for me why

  1973. 1:11:57

    I giggle a little bit is like my dad

  1974. 1:12:00

    also has fainting goats

  1975. 1:12:02

    >> on his on his farm on the horse farm

  1976. 1:12:05

    >> that freeze and fall over.

  1977. 1:12:07

    >> Yes.

  1978. 1:12:07

    >> And there is something and I feel like

  1979. 1:12:09

    it's it's like it's kind of a I've used

  1980. 1:12:13

    it to my advantage.

  1981. 1:12:15

    >> When something scary happens, I go dead

  1982. 1:12:18

    calm.

  1983. 1:12:19

    >> Ooh. something scary for me happens.

  1984. 1:12:22

    >> Yes.

  1985. 1:12:22

    >> I start to just like talk really slowly

  1986. 1:12:25

    >> and I bring it all the way down and I

  1987. 1:12:28

    just kind of I'm like, "Okay." And like

  1988. 1:12:31

    for example, I got sick for the first

  1989. 1:12:33

    time

  1990. 1:12:36

    two weeks ago doing the show. It was

  1991. 1:12:38

    like the 250 whatever performance.

  1992. 1:12:41

    >> You've done that many performances? 10.

  1993. 1:12:43

    >> And we did the Thanksgiving Day parade

  1994. 1:12:46

    in the morning.

  1995. 1:12:47

    >> Oh, that's right.

  1996. 1:12:48

    >> On a Thursday. You guys got to stop

  1997. 1:12:50

    doing.

  1998. 1:12:51

    >> I'm I'm sorry. That's too much.

  1999. 1:12:53

    >> And he was like, "This

  2000. 1:12:54

    >> I need to talk to Broadway's agent and

  2001. 1:12:56

    manager because I when I see you guys

  2002. 1:12:58

    out there in the morning, I'm like,

  2003. 1:12:59

    Broadway,

  2004. 1:13:00

    >> please file a complaint."

  2005. 1:13:01

    >> Broadway, no more of that.

  2006. 1:13:02

    >> I've been like

  2007. 1:13:03

    >> I'm sorry. It's too much work.

  2008. 1:13:05

    >> It was fun. I was I was into it. I'm

  2009. 1:13:07

    going to say that. What are you going to

  2010. 1:13:08

    say? No. I'm like a little Let's go.

  2011. 1:13:10

    >> It's morning time. Okay. Sorry.

  2012. 1:13:12

    >> Well, but then look what happened. I was

  2013. 1:13:13

    like, "Let's go. I want to sing live.

  2014. 1:13:15

    Let's go." We got there. It was

  2015. 1:13:17

    freezing. Julia the one of the sirens

  2016. 1:13:20

    that looked like she was Beyonce. The

  2017. 1:13:21

    wind like the wind was coming at us. So

  2018. 1:13:22

    we were LIKE

  2019. 1:13:27

    and the next day

  2020. 1:13:28

    >> and the next day we had a matinea on the

  2021. 1:13:30

    Friday cuz it's Thanksgiving week and I

  2022. 1:13:33

    was I woke up and I was like huh?

  2023. 1:13:37

    >> Oh no.

  2024. 1:13:39

    >> I was like I think I might have to call

  2025. 1:13:40

    out of the show for the first time. But

  2026. 1:13:42

    it started to come back

  2027. 1:13:44

    >> 250. And then I say to our music

  2028. 1:13:48

    director, "This is going to be raw. I

  2029. 1:13:50

    think this might be rock and roll Bobby

  2030. 1:13:51

    Darren for the weekend." Just, you know,

  2031. 1:13:53

    cuz it's pretty raw. And then I get out

  2032. 1:13:55

    there

  2033. 1:13:57

    and I'm kind of feeling myself. I was

  2034. 1:13:58

    like, "Okay, it's kind of coming back."

  2035. 1:14:00

    And then I was like, "This song, this

  2036. 1:14:02

    could be the start of something big." I

  2037. 1:14:03

    was like, "This could be the star."

  2038. 1:14:10

    And just sand like in the mummy came out

  2039. 1:14:12

    of my throat all over. And I was like,

  2040. 1:14:18

    And then I was like, I'm Jonathan. I'll

  2041. 1:14:21

    be your Bobby Darren today. And I was

  2042. 1:14:23

    like, my voice gone

  2043. 1:14:25

    >> gone.

  2044. 1:14:25

    >> And I get to answer Gracie question to

  2045. 1:14:28

    answer Gracie's question.

  2046. 1:14:30

    >> Completely calm.

  2047. 1:14:32

    >> Yeah.

  2048. 1:14:33

    >> And I I didn't I was just like, "Okay,

  2049. 1:14:35

    and now I'm going to see if it comes

  2050. 1:14:37

    back. I'm going to sing the next song."

  2051. 1:14:38

    Couldn't sing it.

  2052. 1:14:40

    >> Do the next song. Couldn't sing it.

  2053. 1:14:42

    >> Did the next song. couldn't sing it.

  2054. 1:14:48

    The the sirens, the the girls in the

  2055. 1:14:50

    show were like

  2056. 1:14:50

    >> and the band's just like

  2057. 1:14:51

    >> and the band is like, "Gr, what's

  2058. 1:14:54

    happening?" And then I was like, "I'm

  2059. 1:14:57

    going to wait till I'm alone on stage

  2060. 1:14:58

    cuz I don't want to put any of the rest

  2061. 1:14:59

    of my castmates through this."

  2062. 1:15:01

    >> And 20 minutes in,

  2063. 1:15:05

    >> I'm alone and I was like, "Hi everyone,

  2064. 1:15:07

    this is Jonathan." And I start the show

  2065. 1:15:08

    as myself. So it was kind of like they

  2066. 1:15:10

    thought I was part of the show and I was

  2067. 1:15:12

    like, "I'm Jonathan." And um I really

  2068. 1:15:15

    wanted to turn it out for you today

  2069. 1:15:16

    because it's Thanksgiving week and I

  2070. 1:15:18

    know it's really an important time. Um

  2071. 1:15:20

    but I've lost my voice and I'm going to

  2072. 1:15:22

    hurt myself if I continue. Matthew

  2073. 1:15:24

    Magnus is going to come on stage right

  2074. 1:15:26

    now and be Bobby Darren and he's amazing

  2075. 1:15:28

    and the show is amazing and please stay

  2076. 1:15:31

    and enjoy the rest of Just in Time

  2077. 1:15:33

    without me. and I walked off stage and

  2078. 1:15:35

    it was sort of like nightmares like

  2079. 1:15:37

    you're talking about like

  2080. 1:15:38

    >> the idea of losing your voice in a

  2081. 1:15:40

    musical on Broadway could be like a

  2082. 1:15:42

    nightmare

  2083. 1:15:43

    >> but I felt I went I was in shock

  2084. 1:15:46

    >> but also may I just say wisdom

  2085. 1:15:49

    experience no it just experience like

  2086. 1:15:51

    experience sometimes can just you know

  2087. 1:15:54

    it's just like

  2088. 1:15:56

    you've just done the show a lot you've

  2089. 1:15:58

    been on stage a lot for someone else

  2090. 1:16:01

    that could have been truly it would have

  2091. 1:16:03

    like could have taken them down in a way

  2092. 1:16:05

    where they'd never recover. And instead,

  2093. 1:16:06

    you're like, "This is one night in 250

  2094. 1:16:10

    and I'm going to be back here again and

  2095. 1:16:11

    I know how this goes. I'm going to take

  2096. 1:16:12

    care of my cast." Like, that's what it

  2097. 1:16:14

    like. It's a very leader mentality.

  2098. 1:16:16

    >> Thank you.

  2099. 1:16:17

    >> And I think you should sue NBC

  2100. 1:16:20

    and you should sue Radio City and you

  2101. 1:16:22

    should never ever

  2102. 1:16:24

    >> sue Macy's.

  2103. 1:16:25

    >> Sue Macy's. Sue all of those balloons.

  2104. 1:16:30

    >> Outrageous. They make you do that. Okay.

  2105. 1:16:32

    Um, so you have to go you have to go to

  2106. 1:16:34

    your show, but I have one very last

  2107. 1:16:36

    question for you, which is what what are

  2108. 1:16:38

    you watching, listening to? You said you

  2109. 1:16:40

    love your YouTube.

  2110. 1:16:42

    >> What do you Where do you go right now to

  2111. 1:16:43

    laugh?

  2112. 1:16:44

    >> I mean, obviously you're laughing on

  2113. 1:16:45

    stage or having a good time at night,

  2114. 1:16:47

    but what what's your laughy place?

  2115. 1:16:49

    >> Yeah. Yeah. What do you

  2116. 1:16:50

    >> It's YouTube. I am looking at like

  2117. 1:16:52

    YouTube. I'm not on any social media.

  2118. 1:16:54

    >> Incredible. And the one like internet

  2119. 1:16:57

    thing that I struggle with an addiction

  2120. 1:17:00

    to is YouTube. And I'm like scrolling

  2121. 1:17:04

    and I'm laughing. And even like back in

  2122. 1:17:05

    the days of Spring Awakening, I had the

  2123. 1:17:08

    like

  2124. 1:17:09

    >> even back then.

  2125. 1:17:10

    >> Yeah. The cast would come over.

  2126. 1:17:13

    >> I mean, there's

  2127. 1:17:16

    this is like maybe 16 years ago. Like

  2128. 1:17:18

    they would come over and I would I would

  2129. 1:17:20

    be the one. This was like before the

  2130. 1:17:23

    iPhone or it was like when the iPhone

  2131. 1:17:24

    came out. But weirdly, even though I'm

  2132. 1:17:26

    not on any social media, I was the one

  2133. 1:17:27

    that like knew the YouTubes that would

  2134. 1:17:29

    make us laugh.

  2135. 1:17:29

    >> Who was making what was making you laugh

  2136. 1:17:31

    back then?

  2137. 1:17:32

    >> Like, um, have you seen Gay Everest?

  2138. 1:17:34

    >> Okay, first of all, let's just prepare

  2139. 1:17:37

    ourselves before we watch this.

  2140. 1:17:40

    >> A news blooper

  2141. 1:17:41

    >> is the best.

  2142. 1:17:42

    >> My favorite.

  2143. 1:17:42

    >> Me, too. I could watch and have watched

  2144. 1:17:45

    compilations of news bloopers forever.

  2145. 1:17:47

    >> Wait, me too.

  2146. 1:17:48

    >> You know who else loves a news blooper?

  2147. 1:17:50

    name drop Paul Rudd who was on the show

  2148. 1:17:52

    and we watched a lot of news bloopers

  2149. 1:17:55

    and he loves a news blooper. Okay,

  2150. 1:17:57

    >> that they are to me because there's like

  2151. 1:17:59

    the pretense of seriousness. It's

  2152. 1:18:01

    literally us right now us right now.

  2153. 1:18:03

    >> It's really us like on live. Yes,

  2154. 1:18:07

    >> we would be in a This is us in a morning

  2155. 1:18:10

    show.

  2156. 1:18:11

    Hold it together. Yes.

  2157. 1:18:13

    >> Um, Liz Kakowski, a writer in SNL and

  2158. 1:18:15

    Emily Spivey, used to always laugh and

  2159. 1:18:17

    talk about like wanting to write a

  2160. 1:18:19

    morning show where they're violently

  2161. 1:18:21

    hung over and trying to hold it together

  2162. 1:18:23

    and that.

  2163. 1:18:24

    >> Wait, but I feel like there's also a

  2164. 1:18:25

    story somewhere in like we are we were a

  2165. 1:18:28

    small town news show

  2166. 1:18:31

    >> and like the the gay guy and the female

  2167. 1:18:33

    best friend and we now we're on the

  2168. 1:18:35

    local news like we've worked our way up

  2169. 1:18:37

    to like the big leagues like WG is the

  2170. 1:18:40

    one in Lancaster. Yeah.

  2171. 1:18:42

    >> And then

  2172. 1:18:43

    >> WG A L. That's great.

  2173. 1:18:45

    >> It's so good.

  2174. 1:18:46

    >> D.

  2175. 1:18:50

    >> Wait, why did I never put together? It's

  2176. 1:18:52

    W gal.

  2177. 1:18:53

    >> W gal. That's great. WG.

  2178. 1:18:56

    >> And then they have a huge falling out

  2179. 1:18:58

    and now we're on this like the idea of

  2180. 1:18:59

    like holding the tension,

  2181. 1:19:02

    >> right? Suddenly he's gay or like

  2182. 1:19:04

    >> move over morning show.

  2183. 1:19:07

    >> Right after the break, we're going to

  2184. 1:19:08

    interview Eric W. mayor who climbed the

  2185. 1:19:11

    highest mountain in the world, Mount

  2186. 1:19:13

    Everest, but he's gay. I mean, he's gay.

  2187. 1:19:16

    Excuse me. He's blind.

  2188. 1:19:22

    >> It's her. You know what it is? It's

  2189. 1:19:24

    like but

  2190. 1:19:25

    >> but he's gay. I mean, he's gay. Excuse

  2191. 1:19:27

    me. I mean, he's gay. Excuse me. That's

  2192. 1:19:29

    my favorite part.

  2193. 1:19:33

    >> But,

  2194. 1:19:33

    >> yeah, you're right.

  2195. 1:19:34

    >> He's gay. I mean, he's gay. Excuse me.

  2196. 1:19:36

    He's blind.

  2197. 1:19:40

    >> Which begs the question, it's like a

  2198. 1:19:41

    Sonheim lyric, which begs the question,

  2199. 1:19:44

    is he gay?

  2200. 1:19:46

    >> So, there's another video on there of

  2201. 1:19:48

    him reacting

  2202. 1:19:50

    and being like, what?

  2203. 1:19:53

    >> He's not gay. I've looked it up.

  2204. 1:19:55

    >> Okay. Okay. Because why does she say it

  2205. 1:19:57

    twice?

  2206. 1:19:58

    >> But if I could say something now, I'd

  2207. 1:20:00

    love to like publicly ask a question.

  2208. 1:20:02

    >> Yeah, we could. You know what? Actually,

  2209. 1:20:03

    no one's ever publicly asked a question

  2210. 1:20:05

    after being asked a question. So, now's

  2211. 1:20:07

    the time.

  2212. 1:20:07

    >> I'd like to publicly ask a question,

  2213. 1:20:08

    which is another YouTube I love, which

  2214. 1:20:10

    is the grape lady.

  2215. 1:20:11

    >> Yeah.

  2216. 1:20:12

    >> Insane.

  2217. 1:20:13

    >> I want to know if she's okay.

  2218. 1:20:15

    >> Okay. So, if someone could get let us

  2219. 1:20:17

    know if the lady who was stomping

  2220. 1:20:18

    grapes, who fell down and really

  2221. 1:20:22

    and really It sounds like really hurt.

  2222. 1:20:24

    >> She took a hard

  2223. 1:20:28

    >> hope she's okay. Well, cow.

  2224. 1:20:31

    We're going to make sure she is.

  2225. 1:20:34

    >> And they're laughing.

  2226. 1:20:36

    >> Yeah.

  2227. 1:20:37

    >> She took a hard fall off that.

  2228. 1:20:39

    >> Yeah.

  2229. 1:20:41

    >> Hope she's okay.

  2230. 1:20:42

    >> Um

  2231. 1:20:44

    >> Jonathan Grath, I loved our time

  2232. 1:20:46

    together.

  2233. 1:20:47

    >> Same.

  2234. 1:20:48

    >> Friends for life. I know.

  2235. 1:20:49

    >> Friends for life. Let's go.

  2236. 1:20:50

    >> At the very least, co-host for our

  2237. 1:20:53

    morning announcements.

  2238. 1:20:57

    >> Oh, thank you so much, Jonathan Gra.

  2239. 1:20:58

    That was so fun. We knew it would be.

  2240. 1:21:01

    What a hang. What a doll.

  2241. 1:21:04

    In love. What a dream boat. Um, so, um,

  2242. 1:21:08

    for this Polar Plunge, I guess I just

  2243. 1:21:11

    wanted to talk about Sonheim for a

  2244. 1:21:12

    second. Um, because he is so incredible

  2245. 1:21:15

    and his work is so incredible and

  2246. 1:21:17

    there's a lot of people that come

  2247. 1:21:18

    through this this studio talking about

  2248. 1:21:21

    him. And um I would just like to say

  2249. 1:21:24

    that the thing I love the most about

  2250. 1:21:25

    Steven Sonheim is how his music feels

  2251. 1:21:28

    like um a song rolling down a hill. Like

  2252. 1:21:33

    it's it's never really starting. It's

  2253. 1:21:36

    always kind of going, but it's not. It's

  2254. 1:21:38

    just kind of talking and then it's going

  2255. 1:21:41

    and the song is starting and it's

  2256. 1:21:42

    starting this way and it's going over

  2257. 1:21:45

    here. But don't forget it started over

  2258. 1:21:48

    there and it's about to start but it's

  2259. 1:21:51

    not starting yet and we're going over.

  2260. 1:21:54

    So I just I love um I love the rhythm of

  2261. 1:21:59

    it and it's so hard to sing and I'm so

  2262. 1:22:01

    glad I don't have to sing it. So Steven

  2263. 1:22:02

    Sonheim, thank you uh for your work and

  2264. 1:22:04

    your genius. Thank you Jonathan Gra for

  2265. 1:22:06

    joining us. Thank you for listening

  2266. 1:22:08

    always to Good Hang. Have a great day,

  2267. 1:22:11

    week, month, and see you soon. Bye.

  2268. 1:22:15

    You've been listening to Good Hang. The

  2269. 1:22:17

    executive producers for this show are

  2270. 1:22:19

    Bill Simmons, Jenna Weiss Berman, and

  2271. 1:22:21

    me, Amy Polar. The show is produced by

  2272. 1:22:23

    The Ringer and Paperkite. For The

  2273. 1:22:25

    Ringer, production by Jack Wilson, Cat

  2274. 1:22:27

    Spelain, Kaia McMullen, and Aia Xanerys.

  2275. 1:22:30

    For Paperkite, production by Sam Green,

  2276. 1:22:33

    Joel Levelvel, and Jenna Weiss Berman.

  2277. 1:22:35

    Original music by Amy Miles.

  2278. 1:22:39

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